I really need to go

[Dante]

I'm going to be open and honest as we all are. The last week or so I've been pretty good not over thinking thinks and being pretty content but tonight it hit me like a train...
I need to catch the bus, I really can't be here anymore I haven't lived my life the way I wanted to, I don't have memories of good times or really enjoyed my life and I just want my time back but that's not going to happen so the only other option is to end my suffering.
I don't have any real relationships with anyone other than my gf and sometimes as much as I love her she is a reminder of how shit my life is because she has lived hers. I really don't want to be only this planet anymore.
I have far too many regrets in my life and they weigh me down daily and I think it's time. I need to finalise my plan and just get on with it. Thank you for "listening" to me rant but I literally have no one to talk to. Xxx

 

[m00nl1ght]

I´m new here so I don´t really know if I can help you but if you want to talk about it I´m there for you... :)

 

[LivedAndNotLoved]

Hi,

I'm really sorry your going through this. I know where your coming from with regards to having too many regrets in life. Whatever you choose to do is completely your decision and your right, but if you do decide to not ctb, say to yourself that you may have regrets, but you have time on your side and the more time goes on the further away the regrets will be. Eventually they wont be in sight anymore.

Feel free to DM me anytime you want if you need a chat :)

 

[faust]

Having regrets is constantly letting us down.
Your story shows that relationships do not mean happiness.
I feel your pain and I know how it is not to live, but to exist.
Are you still able to feel pleasure in any kinds of activities?
That is important because doing only what you want may help you feel alive.
Your decision is your decision and I respect it no matter what it is.
Sending you hugs