I really need to CTB

[avogado]

Hi, I really need some advice. I want to CTB, IDK why, and I wanted help in the past and tried to seek it, but as you can probably guess, that didn't work out too well. Right now, I'm at a stage where I don't really want help anymore, I no longer want to talk about my feelings, and I don't really want sympathy, empty smiles, and useless advice. The only advice I would find useful now is any recommendations on how to CTB. I've tried overdosing on various different medications, but none of them have worked out well enough or quickly enough, and I've even thought and almost attempted to stab myself however, I'm too scared. I'm also too scared to jump or hang myself so those are out of the question, and I'm too broke to get lethal drugs. I know I'm being pretty picky for someone whose so willing to die, and I apologize for such a demanding request, but can anyone recommend a CTB method that can accommodate to my needs? My life is getting worse and worse, and I'd honestly rather CTB before it gets any worse and end up with me bothering the people around me even more.

Thanks for your time, and please, no sympathy.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry but suicide isn't that straightforward. If there were easy, very accessible methods that aren't awful and risky I would be long gone by this point. There is a suicide resource complination section on here for people to do their own research and a search function, it has to be a personal decision deciding what method is best. Overdosing isn't recommended anyway for ctb.

 

[SilentSadness]

I agree, the methods you've blacklisted encompass just about everything available. Unfortunately, this horrendous world is almost inescapable unless you are lucky. The pro-lifers really are such awful people for making us even consider such brutal options anyway. I hope you can find a way out of this mess, whichever way that may be.

 

[Memoka]

Check SN method (Sodium nitrite). This is the most discussed method here.
Anyway good luck with any decision you make.

 

[wellherewego_]

Once you get your method out, read the posts about getting the courage here. I'm still waiting on my order but the reality is that even when you think you have it, the real challenge starts.

Deciding on a plan that works for you is painful but often a relief once you've decided. Then you need to get your final moments situated if you're trying to go peacefully and not frantically. Most of us are trying to go peacefully. We live in such constant pain that we want to have control of ending the pain. From what I've experienced (when I thought I had it all figured out), that's when the panic/cowardice sets in… I'm currently working on accepting the end and not having fear which didn't occur until (what I thought was) my last 2 days. Prepare for this instinct. If you can overcome that you're ready. If you start telling people (in your circle) what you're going to do, they will try and stop you. Be careful, think it out. I wish you relief.

 

[avogado]

I really want to delete this post can anyone tell me how? it's been more than 6h but IDK how to reach the monitor so that they can remove it

 

[Ki_Nam]

Right now, I'm at a stage where I don't really want help anymore, I no longer want to talk about my feelings, and I don't really want sympathy, empty smiles, and useless advice.

That exactly where I'm at

 

[avogado]

SN method

Where can I get SN?

 

[Memoka]

Where can I get SN?

I dont know really, lul. Sorry. check Stan's Guide to SN.