T90-Alpha
Hopeless
- Apr 21, 2022
- 139
SN: recently my Sodium nitrite got found by a family member, and i cannot order any more at all
Nembutal: there is no way in fucking hell that i will be able to get the chance to order it
Hanging: i cannot hang myself, no matter how hard i try, because of Survival instinct
Gun: i am only 18, i cannot purchase a firearm
Carbon Monoxide Poisoning: i don't have anywhere to ctb safely with carbon monoxide
Train: i do not want to leave a gory death
i do not a have any alternative choices to ctb with anymore. i am stuck here, worse off than i am before, without any chance to end it all anymore. if i missed any, please let me know. i am angered at myself for being foolish enough to not hide my SN carefully enough, and i cannot purchase any more of it. i feel like a fucking idiot, and i lost the opportunity to die peacefully.
Nembutal: there is no way in fucking hell that i will be able to get the chance to order it
Hanging: i cannot hang myself, no matter how hard i try, because of Survival instinct
Gun: i am only 18, i cannot purchase a firearm
Carbon Monoxide Poisoning: i don't have anywhere to ctb safely with carbon monoxide
Train: i do not want to leave a gory death
i do not a have any alternative choices to ctb with anymore. i am stuck here, worse off than i am before, without any chance to end it all anymore. if i missed any, please let me know. i am angered at myself for being foolish enough to not hide my SN carefully enough, and i cannot purchase any more of it. i feel like a fucking idiot, and i lost the opportunity to die peacefully.