sosoft_sogentle
Member
- Jun 1, 2023
- 14
Through my entire life, I have failed to maintain and keep loving and happy relationships because I am much too crude and slobbish. I have only one friend on account of disability leaving me unable to communicate effectively and he is online exclusively and in the past three days I've upset him far too many times, three days in a row I've been unable to make jokes that are not inappropriate and comments that I did not realise would offend. I really do not feel as if anything good comes from my life and existence around others and all I seem to do is repeatedly lacerate the ones I love. It hurts to hurt the only friend you have and the only person you speak to regularly. I really almost feel I deserve some strange death penalty for this, and I hope that from my most wretched of melted flesh something far more worthy and better can come and grow.