Venting I need to kill myself

[willitpass]

I can't function as a fucking adult or even a human being. My apartment is a disaster and I keep getting into fights with my roommate because my mind won't let me fucking clean. Or maybe I'm just a lazy piece of shit making excuses. I can't do this any more. I can't keep doing these cycles where I keep everything put together and then I let myself go and everything becomes a cess pool until I get the energy to get it back together again. I can't do this anymore. I need to just CTB already. These cycles will never end.

 

[Terrible00]

I feel sorry for what you are going through, endless cycles that never end can be very painful. And you aren't lazy, I think it's your overall mental health preventing you from doing anything. If you really wish to leave this world, I hope it brings you peace and freedom.

 

[just_so_done]

I feel your pain and know it well. I can sometimes maintain things for a few weeks but then everything comes down crashing and burning. My brain tries to tell me i'm being lazy too but deep down i know its the depression. Everytime i have to try and rebuild and its so fucking exhausting and really what's the point? It will just fall and fail again. So know that you're not alone in this, i wish i could ctb already too and leave this hell. Thinking of you

 

[cami]

i'm really sorry. have you told your roommate that you're struggling? sometimes that can provoke empathy, but sometimes it doesn't and i really don't know your roommate. sending love your way.

 

[love_peep]

Damn, I'm so sorry for you, I'm already tired of this feeling of depression and uselessness, I want to leave this world as soon as possible, I wish you good luck in your plans, I hope everything works out for you

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing here certainly is so dreadful and it must be really tiring feeling trapped in that situation, it's very much understandable just wishing to finally be free from everything. It's true that there's just too much suffering in existing, I wish you the best.