Help i need to get rid of my survival instinct right now

[mold]

im so high up and theres no one around me and its raining. i did what i needed to do. i said goodbye. i said sorry. im done now. im in unbearable pain. nothing has helped or changed and its only gotten worse. im ready to go so why cant i just jump? i want nothing more than to not see tomorrow. someone please tell me how i can just jump.

 

[renold]

you still here? I dont think u can ever get rid of ur SI im sorry its so hard if u did jump and survive how high up were u? thinking about jumping but I need it to work I need no chance of surival

you still here? I dont think u can ever get rid of ur SI im sorry its so hard if u did jump and survive how high up were u? thinking about jumping but I need it to work I need no chance of surival

personally I'm thinking I just run I dont want to look or think I wont look down ill just barrel off the roof not gonna give myself anytime

 

[swan7o7]

Rid of Survival instinct.

If you're passing outs from exhaustion, and the sleep tears your consciousness away, what makes you hold on? You can gradually use anything you wish to die over as a fill in for your urge to survive
. Alot of times I'm thinking of my dead cat I could have saved, etc.you can imagine how certain drugs like xanax or alcohol inhibit that urge, because they often lead to an overdose by choking on vomit.
And the urge to save yourself isn't as strong, or to fight against an oncoming deep sleep. It can't dissapear but that warning alarm signal can get muffled to the point you can ignore it long enough to die, with a good method you aren't left waiting, it's instant. While drunk or intoxicated your urge can exist separately from you, that's why wittling down your body or preparing it for death is essential if you're concerned about every little sensation death will bring. It's most comfortable when you're already closer to it, if you are lethargic but eager to "pull the trigger". More than you are scared, your fear has turned to anticipation. It means you're truly ready, mentally and physically. If you have a lot of excess bodily energy it all gets used to fight to stay alive. You have to work yourself to the point of being ready. If you could go through with the final act of it, why not do what would inevitably lead up to it. Let your body decay and prepare to be used to sleep and crave release from a constant pain.