I am desperate to die and have made many attempts and failed. Alot of which consisting of traumatic police detainment adding to my PTSD only making my days harder.
I never leave my bed, im too depressed to function, i barely speak these days.
I have tried medication i have tried therapy, nothing really works. My mental health team have totally let me down.
I spoke out about my childhood abuse only for my abuser to continue his life normally. I live in the same house as him which makes things unbearable.
I never feel happiness, even when i have achieved my goals in the past.
i cannot have any type of stable relationship so i have no friends.
I have very little life quality and i have given up the fight. suicide consumes me but i know this time the attempt i make has to be successful.
My choice was fentanyl however i was scammed £100 by a fake seller. I cannot access the dark web as i only have my android phone.
I want my death to be peaceful. and fairly quick.
Money is no object.
I never leave my bed, im too depressed to function, i barely speak these days.
I have tried medication i have tried therapy, nothing really works. My mental health team have totally let me down.
I spoke out about my childhood abuse only for my abuser to continue his life normally. I live in the same house as him which makes things unbearable.
I never feel happiness, even when i have achieved my goals in the past.
i cannot have any type of stable relationship so i have no friends.
I have very little life quality and i have given up the fight. suicide consumes me but i know this time the attempt i make has to be successful.
My choice was fentanyl however i was scammed £100 by a fake seller. I cannot access the dark web as i only have my android phone.
I want my death to be peaceful. and fairly quick.
Money is no object.
