Venting I need to die urgently

[whybother2002]

I can't wait. The clock is ticking. I can't see 2026. I just can't.

Hanging with bedsheets? How is it possible that prisoners under intense suicide watch can kill themselves so easily? Some so old...I need to fucking die, someone please help me. For the love of god

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

What's causing the urgency, if I may ask?

 

[whybother2002]

What's causing the urgency, if I may ask?

It's hard to explain, but because of a deep depression crisis I had to leave everything. I left everything on hold. But the time is passing by and it's becoming obvious to me that I won't have my old life back and that I lost my personality. The thought of me having to live without the things I had (simple things, like watching a film and posting about it) and becoming a zombie, having to adapt to a cruel reality where I have nothing...it's extremely scary. I can't adapt to this new normal. I can't let myself become this other me, a me that I hate.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[atlanticus0_0]

can u travel? im looking for a partner

 

[peabrains20]

I understand that feeling. As the clock ticks and 2026 approaches, I just feel more and more anxious. I don't want another new year. Wishing that you'll be free from this immense dread and anxiety.

 

[whybother2002]

can u travel? im looking for a partner

I can't unfortunately. Sorry.