I need some urgent advise

[boywhowasneverloved]

I am a 19 year old from a third-world country and I hv a few mental disorders and I am gay, So my parents know I am suicidal, so they make sure that I won't attempt, but I don't want to live, but now I hv got a small window on time where I can make a successful attempt, and I know that I want to die, but there is this strange feeling of intense pressure I don't know if it is because I am uncertain of my decision, but If I don't attempt now I might not get another chance for a couple of years.

what should I do.(I hv to make up my mind in few hours or I'll loose my opportunity)

 

[L'absent]

It's difficult to give you an answer. Only you know how long you can resist.

 

[redkitsune98]

I understand your feeling. The very image you use as a profile picture served as inspiration for an artpiece my ex boyfriend made back when we were together ans seeing it made me feel like dying again.
Do you have access to any methods? Do you have anything you think you could use?
I am here available to talk to you

 

[boywhowasneverloved]

I understand your feeling. The very image you use as a profile picture served as inspiration for an artpiece my ex boyfriend made back when we were together ans seeing it made me feel like dying again.
Do you have access to any methods? Do you have anything you think you could use?
I am here available to talk to you

yeah, so my plan is to run away when my parents will be visiting to see my therapist, and buy a rope and go to a forest and do it there.

 

[redkitsune98]

If you think that is something you can do, you should try looking on how to tie the knot and where to hang it from, also how to lose consciousness fast when hanging. Try searching for full suspension hanging threads and there will be a lot of info

 

[boywhowasneverloved]

If you think that is something you can do, you should try looking on how to tie the knot and where to hang it from, also how to lose consciousness fast when hanging. Try searching for full suspension hanging threads and there will be a lot of info

I hv done my research and I am fully prepared for it, but I am unsure If this is the right thing for me.

 

[Coringa]

não sei se é porque não tenho certeza da minha decisão

I think you are doing this on impulse.

If you not sure about ctb dont do it. Ctb you can do anytime.

 

[redkitsune98]

If you are not sure, try evaluating your life and understanding how things could get better or worse and how likely it is.
Me, for example, nothing can get better. I saw your profile picture and was flashbombed by memories of him drawing his artpiece inspired by that one and how he said i was the only boy who ever cared about his art. He ain't coming back so i ain't staying.
Certainty is a feeling, so check if you're feeling it

 

[Mebius]

Youre not going to do it, just skip for now and plan later. Yes life sucks ass, but if you're going to leave, might ass well make it as smooth as possible and not on impulse.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in what you decide.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

If you're unsure, you shouldn't do it. Also, ctb under time pressure can lead to a ton of mistakes and you don't want to make your life worse by failing an attempt and surviving with lasting damage.

 

[DeadNotSleeping]

Just to reiterate what others have said the chance for a fuck up is way too great in this instance. It's great you have done the research but that doesn't prepare you fully for when the time actually comes. And only having a small window to do it will ultimately result in making mistakes.

I know you're not hearing what you want from this thread, and I'm sure nobody here means any disrespect. The issue with hanging when it goes wrong is it can really make your life worse. It has to be done right.

 

[Defenestration]

I am a 19 year old from a third-world country and I hv a few mental disorders and I am gay, So my parents know I am suicidal, so they make sure that I won't attempt, but I don't want to live, but now I hv got a small window on time where I can make a successful attempt, and I know that I want to die, but there is this strange feeling of intense pressure I don't know if it is because I am uncertain of my decision, but If I don't attempt now I might not get another chance for a couple of years.

what should I do.(I hv to make up my mind in few hours or I'll loose my opportunity)

If you dont know, stop, dont it