Venting I miss my ex

[cylus46]

Ok title a little misleading. I dont miss my ex- she cheated on me with 8 guys. I miss the affection and love she gave me. Even if it wasnt real its impact on me was. The voices in my head stopped, I was stable- overworked and exhausted but stable. I was a good boyfriend i did everything right and just serving her the way I did made me feel so good. I miss her "good jobs" her cuddles and kisses. I miss feeling wanted and loved for who I am. And now im alone and no one would ever dare to accept me for who I am. Again I know she didn't not deep down but I didnt care- the illusion was a drug in of itself and its high cured me.
Thats gone
One day ill be gone with it

 

[lohre2000s]

I totally get what you mean.
My ex was... very broken. She is the only ex I ever had and she was the "hello kitty girl" - always craving attention and what not. She PROBABLY cheated on me, but regardless the countless jokes about my appearance and constant need to "order me around" were already enough to make scared shitless of getting a new relationship. Still, I miss those days.
Nowadays she dates a famous youtuber and shows up on my homepage frequently.Shit is hell.