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ThatStateOfMind
Enlightened
- Nov 13, 2021
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I just wanted to get this off my chest, I miss an ex friend I used to have. I made a post on her ages ago. We met on here, she messaged me first, we connected on instagram. I eventually got in a relationship and she unexpectedly blew up on me. I tried to calm her down and salvage the friendship if it was possible but it wasn't.
Her last message to me was "Have a nice life
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It just makes me sad because I remember when I would wake up excited to see a new message from her (drastically different time zones). I suppose I should have known this would've happened as she admitted she developed feelings for me, we took some time apart and she told me they had faded but I presume that was a lie and we resumed our friendship.
I never gave any notion of anything other than friends since the distance was too far to have any realistic relationship. She eventually disabled her account on Instagram so I have no way to contact her now, and she probably has like a dozen different accounts on here since she makes one, abandons it, makes a new one, the cycle continues.
I just miss her a lot, finals are coming up, I know she had a lot going on in her life that I hope she was able to overcome but I worry. Her last message on her last account that I know of was about attempting hanging, saying she'll eventually get the hang of it since she kept messing with her gag reflex.
Don't get me wrong, her feelings are not invalid, far from it. It probably hurt her to find out, but still, I feel really lonely because she was one of my few friends, and knew more about me than most.
If, for some reason you're reading this J, I'm sorry our friendship ended the way it did, and I hope you're okay.
Her last message to me was "Have a nice life

It just makes me sad because I remember when I would wake up excited to see a new message from her (drastically different time zones). I suppose I should have known this would've happened as she admitted she developed feelings for me, we took some time apart and she told me they had faded but I presume that was a lie and we resumed our friendship.
I never gave any notion of anything other than friends since the distance was too far to have any realistic relationship. She eventually disabled her account on Instagram so I have no way to contact her now, and she probably has like a dozen different accounts on here since she makes one, abandons it, makes a new one, the cycle continues.
I just miss her a lot, finals are coming up, I know she had a lot going on in her life that I hope she was able to overcome but I worry. Her last message on her last account that I know of was about attempting hanging, saying she'll eventually get the hang of it since she kept messing with her gag reflex.
Don't get me wrong, her feelings are not invalid, far from it. It probably hurt her to find out, but still, I feel really lonely because she was one of my few friends, and knew more about me than most.
If, for some reason you're reading this J, I'm sorry our friendship ended the way it did, and I hope you're okay.