I miss my dog

[Manfrotto99]

I lost my dog about five months ago. I've totally lost track of time. Every day I have cried and felt the pain of missing her. I wake up thinking how will I get through another day without her. It isnt getting easier, today was exceptionally hard and painful as spring is starting here. A time we used to love to spend walking and in the garden together. I would wake up, give her a kiss and sing to her. I thanked God every day for her. She was in a lot of pain towards the end with stomach cancer but she rarely showed it.

I never had my own children. I feel so alone. She was all I had. I felt this way when my dog before her passed, but getting her as a puppy helped me to get over the grief and pain. I have had dogs for the past 30 years and I am lost without one. A part of me has died and i dont know who I am anymore. I know this is not normal but she was all I had and she kept me strong, she softened my heart, she calmed me and kept me going through intense stress and turmoil, that has not changed.

They were both collies, the lassie kind. I find some peace knowing they are together keeping one another company, waiting for me. I cannot afford another dog and my siutaion wont allow it. This won't change. I am scared of dying but I'm looking forward to being with them again in a garden.

 

[Gangrel]

I'm sorry you lost your babies, but you should take confort that they lived a nice life (i hope so) and you gave them a lot of love. Maybe you can get a new dog soon, or a cat, they are very low effort sometimes.

 

[Roadrunner]

Im so sorry for your loss. I was lucky enough to be able to afford to get another dog when my girls health and age were catching up to her. It makes me so sad that I don't believe in and afterlife and I won't be seeing her again. I hope I'm wrong.
The dog I lost 2 years ago kept me alive (whether that's a good thing I question). We would go hiking, and i was suffering through an extremely bad depression. I knew she'd miss me, so I'd promise her during our walks that I'd try my hardest to outlive her so she wouldn't have to go through that.
Sorry, I don't mean to hijack your post. Just , sharing stories. I feel so bad for what your going through, I can't imagine. If well wishes can help at all, you have mine, friend.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I'm sorry you lost your babies, but you should take confort that they lived a nice life (i hope so) and you gave them a lot of love. Maybe you can get a new dog soon, or a cat, they are very low effort sometimes.

Thank you, I am not in a financial position to get another pet and I don't see that changing.

 

[SufferingNSilence]

Oh Gosh, I'm SO VERY SORRY for your loss of your fur baby(babies!). I can WHOLEHEARTEDLY, HONESTLY RELATE to what your going through .

After reading your post, I now have a waterfall of tears flowing .

I also lost my fur baby on 11/11/23. She (Hazel) had a mammory tumor. She MADE IT THROUGH SURGERY!..I was SOOOO SOOO HAPPY!....but did not make it through the night post-op at the vet(I'm pretty sure they didn't monitor her well through the night..& my girl was a SMART Doggy..so I imagine her prob getting past the funnel neck thing and licking her wounds until she likely broke stitches & bled out().
I "THOUGHT" I was otw to p/u my pup of 12 yrs the next day!...but that wasn't the case. They didn't even call me. I got the news when I called and asked was it ok to pick her up?!(SMDH!)

Even tho she was older, I JUST KNOW!..as spunky and happy as she was...she wdv still had at least a few or more years. She was a lab/pit mix.

I never got to have children either..& I swear she was the CLOSEST thing I would ever know...so again, I can also relate

Time does heal to SOME EXTENT. ..but TBH, I'm STILL GRIEVING. I have ALWAYS taken any type of losses extremely HARD though. I'm a huge empath, so I believe that contributes even in some odd way of having like 'double the emotions' on losses. Idk.

Why can't dogs (& cats) have life spans of humans it makes you think and want!..
..It's Not fair.

I definitely can relate to your heartache Honey & I Hope You can find Peace & Joy in this life...OR, *Whatever Your Heart Desires*.

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

all dogs go to heaven

 

[DoneWithThisLife]

So sorry you have lost your fur baby. People who have never had a pet cannot understand the pain of losing them. I've lost many over the years but still grieve over my collie cross who left us 13 years ago, he was such a special boy. The only consolation in all this is that at least we can ensure they do not suffer unnecessarily and I take comfort knowing that I did the right thing at the right time for him.

It's just a fucking shame that we can't ask someone to do that for us.

 

[Dai]

I lost my dog about five months ago. I've totally lost track of time. Every day I have cried and felt the pain of missing her. I wake up thinking how will I get through another day without her. It isnt getting easier, today was exceptionally hard and painful as spring is starting here. A time we used to love to spend walking and in the garden together. I would wake up, give her a kiss and sing to her. I thanked God every day for her. She was in a lot of pain towards the end with stomach cancer but she rarely showed it.

I never had my own children. I feel so alone. She was all I had. I felt this way when my dog before her passed, but getting her as a puppy helped me to get over the grief and pain. I have had dogs for the past 30 years and I am lost without one. A part of me has died and i dont know who I am anymore. I know this is not normal but she was all I had and she kept me strong, she softened my heart, she calmed me and kept me going through intense stress and turmoil, that has not changed.

They were both collies, the lassie kind. I find some peace knowing they are together keeping one another company, waiting for me. I cannot afford another dog and my siutaion wont allow it. This won't change. I am scared of dying but I'm looking forward to being with them again in a garden.

I'm so very sorry about your loss. Sounds like you gave them amazing lives filled with love. Is that her name, Tasha? She looks so adorable.

I'm also sorry about your financial situation. Would it be possible to volunteer in the meantime at a local shelter to cuddle and take dogs for walks? I'm sure they'd all love your attention!