I might’ve found a way out.

[Itsallover123]

TLDR; I might be able to save my future by going to trade school but I don't know if it's really worth it.

An hour ago I was sitting on my bed contemplating how I'm going to ctb on wednesday (my first opening in about 2 months) when I got a call from a trade school that I had emailed for info on enrollment. The guy wanted to meet and asked if wednesday was okay, I said no. He asked about tuesday and I said its gotta be after wednesday, so thursday it is. Then I screamed in my pillow and took a shower to think things over. I don't know what to think. I'm still retaining my fast for my method. It's like he ignited some new SI and now all I can think about is a life I'd be missing out on, even though I still really want to leave. I had this weird fantasy in the shower where if I managed to fix my future I could go to the guy and thank him for saving my life. In hindsight I should've said yes to meeting tomorrow, that way I could find out more and figure out if I would want to go through the trouble of living, because if I go to the meeting on thursday I wont have another opening for a long time (unless I run away or something). Idk. It feels like a waste to not go now that I have a chance, something a lot of others don't get. I still have literally the rest of my life to ctb, so I guess I'll give it a shot. If you've made it this far, I'm sorry you had to read this word vomit.

 

[WoAiGou]

What's the worst thing that happens, always will be opportunities down the line to CTB, might be more difficult but the option is there. You should be proud of yourself for taking the initiative, I wish I had went to trade school. Good luck with the interview or whatever you decide to do.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I still have literally the rest of my life to ctb, so I guess I'll give it a shot.

Good attitude, hope it works out. Even if it doesn't, sounds like you could still find other ways to get wherever you want to go.

 

[FuneralCry]

Whatever happens, I wish you the best. I'm pleased for you that you have this opportunity.

 

[Sherri]

Give it a shot, do what your heart tells you,could change your life. Wishing you good luck, keep us posted, keeping my fingers crossed for you.

 

[forgotten15]

I also encourage you to give it a shot. I am definately not an optimistic person and don't believe something could ever change for the better in my case, but if I were you I would take this opportunity. Even if it doesn't work out at least you will be at peace knowing that you tried and won't have regrets. As you said, you have time to ctb, which I think should be done only when your are absolutely sure nothing else could ever work for you. I wish you the best of luck:)

 

[Smart No More]

I think the way you feel with the fomo thing is a sign that you have a serious chance of things inproving. I really hope you go and it works out. It's definitely worth it. Like you say, nothing to lose by going. It sounds pretty promising to me! Best of luck with it!

 

[Mixo]

You are courageous to explore your other options before throwing in the towel. I think it's a great alternative to standard education to look into trade schooling, so good luck with your meeting. I hope you find something that tickles your fancy.

 

[kovkay]

I was a suicidal NEET for two years and going to study welding changed my life. Give it a shot. The trades are amazing.

 

[completely-done]

You are inspirational. Very good for you! Give it your best, you never know what opportunities lay ahead