I might just runaway.....

[MiMif]

I hate this life so much and I doubt I have even the energy to runaway but a certain part of me yearns to just leave everything behind , change my name and never look back. I might try it before I die.

I hate everyone around me and am no one's favorite person. I'll probably runaway once I sort out my hospital bills and then I'll kill myself once I get tired of that.

I've tried killing myself so many times and yapped so much about it here but have only really had one or two real attempts which ended in failure. Ending this current me is the next best thing. I want to disappear

 

[Irisse]

This idea occured to me many times as well, but then I realize that my thoughts and mental illnesses will still be with me whenever I go. However, if you live in a toxic environment it is necessary to get away to save your sanity. And who knows, maybe you get to like your new lifestyle and your suicidality decreases. I wish you good luck no matter what you decide.

 

[Captain Howdy]

I feel like it might be worthwhile to find some like-minded people, get 10 or 12 of us together and buy a far out place and create a hippie style commune far away from the rest of the world. Like an artist enclave without any of the culty shit.

 

[MiMif]

I feel like it might be worthwhile to find some like-minded people, get 10 or 12 of us together and buy a far out place and create a hippie style commune far away from the rest of the world. Like an artist enclave without any of the culty shit.

That would be nice....tho apart of me feels like even if I left my mental issues would still make me wanna die

 

[Captain Howdy]

Yeah, you have to forgive me laughing (definitely not at you), because I know I would feel completely self-conscious in such a place. It would need built in a such a manner that everyone could run away to their own little place/cottage but maybe meet for an occasional tea, lol. It would be the weirdest place if it were full of people with suicidal ideation.