I might ctb tomorrow

[dudebl]

My mom goes into the office all day tomorrow, a rare chance I get to have enough time to pull it off.

My plan is to run a generator in the garage and die of carbon monoxide. I already disabled the carbon monoxide detector that shuts the engine off when levels get too high a few weeks ago (thanks YouTube).

I hope I have the guts to go through with it.

 

[darksouls]

I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[unluckysadness]

Sorry that life brought you here. Is your plan reliable ? You seem so young It makes me sad to see so many teens here

 

[PI3.14]

If there is absolutely no other alternative, then I wish you peace, whether you go with it or not.

I hope that you have exhausted all other options first though, best luck

 

[letmeseethedeath]

My mom goes into the office all day tomorrow, a rare chance I get to have enough time to pull it off.

My plan is to run a generator in the garage and die of carbon monoxide. I already disabled the carbon monoxide detector that shuts the engine off when levels get too high a few weeks ago (thanks YouTube).

I hope I have the guts to go through with it.

wish you a safe journey and the peace you deserve

 

[Irisse]

I'm sorry that it's come to this. I wish you a peaceful departure.

 

[thebox_123]

If you have any doubts, I would ask you to reconsider. The regret sets in pretty quick after you think you've passed the point of no return. You've got to be certain that it's what you want to do. I have made more than a few attempts in my life and I know the feeling firsthand.

 

[dudebl]

Sorry that life brought you here. Is your plan reliable ? You seem so young It makes me sad to see so many teens here

I'm not young unfortunately, I'm 36.

I've just made a irreversible mess of my life and am staying with her.

I'ma complete loser.

If you have any doubts, I would ask you to reconsider. The regret sets in pretty quick after you think you've passed the point of no return. You've got to be certain that it's what you want to do. I have made more than a few attempts in my life and I know the feeling firsthand.

I have doubts but they are outweighed by being a 36 male, broke, unemployed, living at home.

I'm the bottom of the barrel and useless to society at this age. I'll never have the future to retire or rebuild the six figure career I had.

Also I have a misdemeanor for disorderly conduct, basically killing my chance of ever rebuilding a comfortable life.

I'm a disgrace to my mom and have been a mistake from birth, she got pregnant at 19 by accident and I grew up never knowing a father.

There's no value in me continuing to waste air and suck up resources. Leave that to the people who matter and were supposed to be here.

 

[unluckysadness]

I don't think you're a loser. If you're still alive at 36 with all these struggles, I'd rather say you're a hero. In some ways, I consider myself as a hero too (I'm a little older than you : 43 male). I know it will sound like pro-lifer words, but it's not.

Ok, we didn't win a gold medal at the olympics and we have miserable lives, but struggling for decades and still being here is more heroic than just winning a marathon. But it's just my opinion. I've been putting myself down since birth, but I don't like it when others put themselves down.

Wathever you decide, I wish you PEACE of mind

 

[dudebl]

I don't think you're a loser. If you're still alive at 36 with all these struggles, I'd rather say you're a hero. In some ways, I consider myself as a hero too (I'm a little older than you : 43 male). I know it will sound like pro-lifer words, but it's not.

Ok, we didn't win a gold medal at the olympics and we have miserable lives, but struggling for decades and still being here is more heroic than just winning a marathon. But it's just my opinion. I've been putting myself down since birth, but I don't like it when others put themselves down.

Wathever you decide, I wish you PEACE of mind

Thank you - I'm scared, but I think I've made my decision. I'm scared of it not working and being permanently disabled, but it's a risk I need to take.