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My dad used to be pretty cool when I was age 9 and younger.
However...when I got into my pre-teen years, I got moody. As is normal for someone going through an awkward phase. And I sometimes would make rude or inappropriate remarks. But instead of handling it in a mature way, he'd angrily shout and insult me right back.
Like...it's hard to think of a specific scenario since it was so long ago, but here goes.
Dad: Hey son, how was your day at school?
Me: *rolls eyes* Ugh, can you please not talk to me right now? I'm really not in a fucking good mood.
Dad: Hey, don't you talk to me that way you worthless motherfucker! I'll take away all of your fucking privileges!
Yeah...it's fucked up, but that's my family dynamic. :/
As I got older and older though...it got worse and worse.
And as I eventually came out as bisexual, agender/genderless/non-binary and shit, he got even more angry and more aggressive towards me. Going as for as even pushing me to knock me to the ground, and giving me hard open hand slaps to the face, even when I still had my glasses on.
I can't really deal with this anymore. I already was an adult at 18. I'm not a whole year older than 18, I'm 19. I'm getting closer and closer to death, and I can't deal with all of my dad's bullshit and negativity. I plan to move out before turning 20. Get a job at Publix or something, as well as a roommate or two.
As for my mom...she's actually really nice, and my dad argues a lot with her too, but doesn't hit her since she's female. My mom said she doesn't even know why they're still together, but she's afraid to leave him.
For the record, this is not completely one-sided. My dad is an aggressive asshole, but I am one too. Before he gave me those hard open hand slaps to the face, I tormented him a heck of a lot. It was something like.
Me: I'm bisexual and I will go on dates with other boys whether you like it or not! You may biologically be my father, but I don't consider you my daddy! You're just a sexist, homophobic, racist asshole, whose entire life and existence is worth absolutely nothing! Nobody likes you, nobody I tell you! That's why you got zero friends, and all of your friends left you! You're better off dead! Heck, I would even kill you myself if I could!
Dad: *gives me like 5 hard open hand slaps to the face* Do you wanna get hit in the face bitch? Is that what you want? Look at me, I'm bigger and stronger than you. If anyone dies, it will be you, motherfucker. And for the record, you're the worthless one. I used to be a computer engineer. What the fuck have you done besides play video games all day for 19 years? The world frankly wouldn't miss you if you died. *slaps me some more*
Yeah...incredibly unhealthy relationship, and probably makes all of you uncomfortable just reading it, but I felt I needed to write and post this somewhere.
However...when I got into my pre-teen years, I got moody. As is normal for someone going through an awkward phase. And I sometimes would make rude or inappropriate remarks. But instead of handling it in a mature way, he'd angrily shout and insult me right back.
Like...it's hard to think of a specific scenario since it was so long ago, but here goes.
Dad: Hey son, how was your day at school?
Me: *rolls eyes* Ugh, can you please not talk to me right now? I'm really not in a fucking good mood.
Dad: Hey, don't you talk to me that way you worthless motherfucker! I'll take away all of your fucking privileges!
Yeah...it's fucked up, but that's my family dynamic. :/
As I got older and older though...it got worse and worse.
And as I eventually came out as bisexual, agender/genderless/non-binary and shit, he got even more angry and more aggressive towards me. Going as for as even pushing me to knock me to the ground, and giving me hard open hand slaps to the face, even when I still had my glasses on.
I can't really deal with this anymore. I already was an adult at 18. I'm not a whole year older than 18, I'm 19. I'm getting closer and closer to death, and I can't deal with all of my dad's bullshit and negativity. I plan to move out before turning 20. Get a job at Publix or something, as well as a roommate or two.
As for my mom...she's actually really nice, and my dad argues a lot with her too, but doesn't hit her since she's female. My mom said she doesn't even know why they're still together, but she's afraid to leave him.
For the record, this is not completely one-sided. My dad is an aggressive asshole, but I am one too. Before he gave me those hard open hand slaps to the face, I tormented him a heck of a lot. It was something like.
Me: I'm bisexual and I will go on dates with other boys whether you like it or not! You may biologically be my father, but I don't consider you my daddy! You're just a sexist, homophobic, racist asshole, whose entire life and existence is worth absolutely nothing! Nobody likes you, nobody I tell you! That's why you got zero friends, and all of your friends left you! You're better off dead! Heck, I would even kill you myself if I could!
Dad: *gives me like 5 hard open hand slaps to the face* Do you wanna get hit in the face bitch? Is that what you want? Look at me, I'm bigger and stronger than you. If anyone dies, it will be you, motherfucker. And for the record, you're the worthless one. I used to be a computer engineer. What the fuck have you done besides play video games all day for 19 years? The world frankly wouldn't miss you if you died. *slaps me some more*
Yeah...incredibly unhealthy relationship, and probably makes all of you uncomfortable just reading it, but I felt I needed to write and post this somewhere.