I just couldn't take it. Everything feels too much and not enough at the same time.
I was hoping I can find SN at my school ceramic shop... but apparently I wouldn't be able to. Maybe I will try when I have in person class.
I'm supposed to be starting IOP this upcoming week and I feel like no one really feels supportive for me. Maybe the friend ( even that is a stretch) i live with who I told, but I'd i felt i should've kept it to myself like with other things.
I want to leave so bad but it's this split issue of the fear or death and craving it. Not wanting to exist and yet feeling a very very very minimal amount of hope left. Everything feels like a immense effort and it's so fucking pathetic.
* Sorry for the elispses new phone
I was hoping I can find SN at my school ceramic shop... but apparently I wouldn't be able to. Maybe I will try when I have in person class.
I'm supposed to be starting IOP this upcoming week and I feel like no one really feels supportive for me. Maybe the friend ( even that is a stretch) i live with who I told, but I'd i felt i should've kept it to myself like with other things.
I want to leave so bad but it's this split issue of the fear or death and craving it. Not wanting to exist and yet feeling a very very very minimal amount of hope left. Everything feels like a immense effort and it's so fucking pathetic.
* Sorry for the elispses new phone
