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Cloud Busting

Cloud Busting

Formerly pinkribbonscars
Sep 9, 2023
719
Anhedonia

That's always a sign of bad things soon to come
 
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MissAbyss

MissAbyss

void-certified.
Jul 20, 2025
650
When I become cynical.
 
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singingcrow

singingcrow

Experienced
Jul 7, 2024
222
when surviving the day feels like an achievement
 
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pond

pond

stuck like a nerf dart
May 8, 2018
310
When my laziness overrides my walking addiction and I just stop moving.
 
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Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
322
When I don't want to get out of bed.
 
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pond

pond

stuck like a nerf dart
May 8, 2018
310
When I regress into being more and more immature.
 
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Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
845
when i need to eat some comfort food to recover
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

My life is torture
Nov 1, 2025
396
- When my sleep gets constantly interrupted/I can't sleep.
- When others constantly terrorise me on a day to day basis and I can't do anything about it.
- When I remember how awful my childhood was.
 
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Self Medicated

Self Medicated

Member
Jul 17, 2025
27
When I can't even be bothered drinking.
 
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NZkiwi

Specialist
Sep 17, 2019
377
i dont leave my room
i dont go for a run
i stop eating
i lose my labido
i socially withdraw
i stop making plans for the future
i cancel turning up to events
 
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whywere

Angelic
Jun 26, 2020
4,191
When I cannot sleep, stay up for days on end.
When everything seems like an extreme effort to do anything.
The "funk" gets so bad that I sit in my work chair and literally freeze up.
When about the only thoughts are very dark thoughts about ctb and my darn chronic pain.
Not hungry or thirsty at all

Walter
 
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SoulCage

SoulCage

Experienced
Dec 28, 2023
228
When I have to make decisions.
 
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pond

pond

stuck like a nerf dart
May 8, 2018
310
When I lose to nostalgia and keep running through clips of old shows/content or listening to music from the past for hours and hours on end.
 
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PainfulSorrow

PainfulSorrow

New Member
Dec 25, 2025
3
When I can't get out of bed, don't eat, don't sleep, don't shower, don't speak
 
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