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Petting a cat might change my mind
- Oct 27, 2023
- 55
I started SHing in 2021, tried to recover and relapsed a year ago, I've been hiding this away from my family ever since then.
I've been trying to open up since a month after I started self harming, but I've been unable to because of my inability to open up and my own worries over how my family would react.
I had a date set to talk about this to my family, August 12th 2024. I even had a little speech and time set for when I would do it.
Thing is, turns out my sister also started doing this shit like a month ago, and her dumbass decided it was a great idea to cut while in class with her classmates, and also, started doing it regularly at home too
I knew, I'm not stupid and I could see the marks on her arms, but I honestly didn't give a fuck. Don't get me wrong, I love her, but I felt kind of jealous over the fact that she got found out so easily, something that I've been trying to do for a year and my luck has been forcing me to avoid.
My parents are seeing therapy costs for her, even tho she's only been doing this stuff for less than 3 weeks.
I'm jealous, I know I lack empathy, but ever since this happened, I've found myself becoming more and more bitter towards her.
I still can't figure out how to open up, and now I feel like I'm obligated not to because I'll be taking away her spotlight and she might get bitter like me too
I've been trying to open up since a month after I started self harming, but I've been unable to because of my inability to open up and my own worries over how my family would react.
I had a date set to talk about this to my family, August 12th 2024. I even had a little speech and time set for when I would do it.
Thing is, turns out my sister also started doing this shit like a month ago, and her dumbass decided it was a great idea to cut while in class with her classmates, and also, started doing it regularly at home too
I knew, I'm not stupid and I could see the marks on her arms, but I honestly didn't give a fuck. Don't get me wrong, I love her, but I felt kind of jealous over the fact that she got found out so easily, something that I've been trying to do for a year and my luck has been forcing me to avoid.
My parents are seeing therapy costs for her, even tho she's only been doing this stuff for less than 3 weeks.
I'm jealous, I know I lack empathy, but ever since this happened, I've found myself becoming more and more bitter towards her.
I still can't figure out how to open up, and now I feel like I'm obligated not to because I'll be taking away her spotlight and she might get bitter like me too