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laeloth

laeloth

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Nov 24, 2020
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It has been brief and listing the reasons:

1) Illness: Major depression, Panic disorder with agoraphobia, alcoholism.

2) Economic reasons. My salary goes half in rent, another 20% in living expenses and pension. I do not make the end of the month. I've been like this for years.

3) Not being able to see my son. Live far away. I never got over divorce.

4) I don't feel like fighting anymore. 19 years are many taking medication that does not allow you to be fully functional. I'm practically addicted to benzodiazepines. In the medium and long term, this affects cognition and can even cause dementia.

You just need to write the date and sign.

The displeasure of the family is going to be enormous, but not because I died if not because of the stigma that I did it by committing suicide. We hardly speak to each other and when we do they are for the typical and hypocritical social formalisms. Especially on holidays, birthdays and more.

Anyway, I hope it's tomorrow. Let's see if my guts won't fail me
 
awfullife

awfullife

Arcanist
Nov 16, 2019
435
I'm really sorry about your situation. It has remarkable similarities to mine but you are a few years more advanced progression. I will be thinking about you tonight and hope you are at peace with your decision. Are you currently taking ssris? You seem very down. I understand and wish you the best.
 
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Nexuno

Nexuno

Specialist
Dec 9, 2020
301
I can feel your pain. I wish you to find the peace you deserve.
 
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justanotherstar

justanotherstar

Life: you can’t fire me, I quit.
Nov 23, 2020
345
I'm sorry to hear you are in so much pain laeloth
 
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justsad&done

Visionary
Nov 11, 2020
2,804
I hope you find what you're looking for and your journey is a smooth one.
 

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