I just wish I had a freakin gun

[NothingElseMatters]

to blow my head off instantly. I'm too chicken to take SN.

 

[Dizzy_Dreams]

You think a gun is better than SN?

 

[bluedreamscape]

How painful is SN?

You think a gun is better than SN?

 

[yive]

me too, me too! but guns are banned in my country...

 

[Happy deathday!]

Me too... If I just had a fucking gun I'd be outta this shithole so quick

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

*pop*

 

[lonerclown666]

I'm thinking in joining the police just to get a gun

 

[UselessMF]

I have a shotgun and had the barrel in my mouth so many times but just couldn't pull the trigger. SI is really strong when there's no turning back.

 

[catch99]

You think a gun is better than SN?

Gun will kill you within minutes whereas with SN it will likely take hours even though you're unconscious for the most of it.

 

[bluedreamscape]

Gun will kill you within minutes whereas with SN it will likely take hours even though you're unconscious for the most of it.

When you say "unconscious" do you mean complete black out with no hallucinating?

 

[Celerity]

*pop*

Survived?
Fuck.

 

[WornOutLife]

I think getting a gun would be cool for me because I could get drunk af and just pull the trigger.
I really wanna ctb while being happy and drinking alcohol.

 

[catch99]

When you say "unconscious" do you mean complete black out with no hallucinating?

Well I have heard from a couple people on this site that survived SN that say they blacked out then the next thing they remember was waking up in the hospital. I think though that in that survival state that you're in there is likely no time to think therefore no memories. In my opinion once you're about to die, hallucinating is inevitable.

Many scientific studies associate near death experiences to DMT(a psychedelic drug that also naturally occurs in your brain). DMT only lasts for a few minutes but people who experience it say it feels like a lifetime. Another thing is that these experiences are forgotten almost instantly when you're conscious again and there is almost no way to describe them. This is likely what religion describes as heaven or hell, the last moment of your life that feels like an entire eternity and whether it is good or bad equates to 'heaven' and 'hell'.

Idk if this answers your question :)

 

[Celerity]

Well I have heard from a couple people on this site that survived SN that say they blacked out then the next thing they remember was waking up in the hospital. I think though that in that survival state that you're in there is likely no time to think therefore no memories. In my opinion once you're about to die, hallucinating is inevitable.

Many scientific studies associate near death experiences to DMT(a psychedelic drug that also naturally occurs in your brain). DMT only lasts for a few minutes but people who experience it say it feels like a lifetime. Another thing is that these experiences are forgotten almost instantly when you're conscious again and there is almost no way to describe them. This is likely what religion describes as heaven or hell, the last moment of your life that feels like an entire eternity and whether it is good or bad equates to 'heaven' and 'hell'.

Idk if this answers your question :)

Oh, man. This sounds like a really, really bad trip I had with pot edibles. I thought I had discovered Hell - time just stretched out infinitely. I was fucked up for several months after.

 

[catch99]

Oh, man. This sounds like a really, really bad trip I had with pot edibles. I thought I had discovered Hell - time just stretched out infinitely. I was fucked up for several months after.

I've also had some similar experiences on edibles . DMT is a whole different beast though. I've done it a few times but never enough to 'break-through' though. Breaking through means you're unconscious and put into a 4D state where you see different entities like Elves or Lions and they tell you different things or give you advice. I was still conscious for my experiences so I didn't zap into that realm but the best way I could describe the feeling that I got from it was feeling like death. For a few minutes it was as if I didn't exist at all. For months after that my suicidal thoughts had gone away because I was completely terrified of having that feeling again. Maybe I should make a thread about this

 

[Celerity]

I've also had some similar experiences on edibles . DMT is a whole different beast though. I've done it a few times but never enough to 'break-through' though. Breaking through means you're unconscious and put into a 4D state where you see different entities like Elves or Lions and they tell you different things or give you advice. I was still conscious for my experiences so I didn't zap into that realm but the best way I could describe the feeling that I got from it was feeling like death. For a few minutes it was as if I didn't exist at all. For months after that my suicidal thoughts had gone away because I was completely terrified of having that feeling again. Maybe I should make a thread about this

Yes, do it! We need something to liven shit up here.

 

[bluedreamscape]

I've also had some similar experiences on edibles . DMT is a whole different beast though. I've done it a few times but never enough to 'break-through' though. Breaking through means you're unconscious and put into a 4D state where you see different entities like Elves or Lions and they tell you different things or give you advice. I was still conscious for my experiences so I didn't zap into that realm but the best way I could describe the feeling that I got from it was feeling like death. For a few minutes it was as if I didn't exist at all. For months after that my suicidal thoughts had gone away because I was completely terrified of having that feeling again. Maybe I should make a thread about this

Were you terrified of the death feeling while you were experiencing it or only in retrospect?

 

[lofticries]

I'd rather sn than a gun. I've seen too many gun survivor suicides where I'm practically put off from the whole method completely. Yes I know if you do it right you'll insta die but I don't trust myself not to fuck it up. At least if I fuck up sn I won't be that damaged if I survive.

 

[bluedreamscape]

I'd rather sn than a gun. I've seen too many gun survivor suicides where I'm practically put off from the whole method completely. Yes I know if you do it right you'll insta die but I don't trust myself not to fuck it up. At least if I fuck up sn I won't be that damaged if I survive.

So if people survive SN do they have liver damage and the type of damage you get after an OD on advil or whatever? Or is it actually quite minor?

Also, if you survive SN and you have a bag of SN next to you, will you be charged with possession in the US?

edit: I guess the second question is more relevant if one decides to take SN in a motel/hotel room so family doesn't find them first.

 

[lofticries]

So if people survive SN do they have liver damage and the type of damage you get after an OD on advil or whatever? Or is it actually quite minor?

Also, if you survive SN and you have a bag of SN next to you, will you be charged with possession in the US?

I think it's quite minor. To my knowledge nobody whoever failed sn has come back all messed up.

SN is legal in the us so no but you might be institutionalized.

Here's a thread on sn.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-faq-storage-recovery-death.29714/

 

[catch99]

Were you terrified of the death feeling while you were experiencing it or only in retrospect?

It was completely terrifying while I was feeling it. It was as if I had no ego and no concept of myself which was fucking scary. Humans these days(myself included) create a complex identity which they think is them but at the end of the day we're just animals and all of that identity you create for yourself is complete BS. Having that identity taken away from you and being put into that animal state is fucking terrifying especially if you have a large ego. After the experience I was so much more appreciative of everything because of how scary it was.

If what you're asking is that if you take the SN will the hallucinations before you die be a terrifying experience, the answer in my opinion is maybe yes or maybe no. I think it comes down to whether you are satisfied with your life and feel like you accomplished what you wanted to accomplish. If you are feeling good going into your death, then you will be sent off with a peaceful trip that will be 'heaven'. If you have many regrets and down thoughts(like many people who commit suicide) your trip might be more like 'hell'. I have been wanting to CTB for some time but this is what terrifies me and keeps me from doing it.

It is possible though that if you shoot yourself in brain, then your brain will not be able to release the DMT, and you will neither experience 'heaven' nor 'hell' but simply nothing.

 

[bluedreamscape]

It was completely terrifying while I was feeling it. It was as if I had no ego and no concept of myself which was fucking scary. Humans these days(myself included) create a complex identity which they think is them but at the end of the day we're just animals and all of that identity you create for yourself is complete BS. Having that identity taken away from you and being put into that animal state is fucking terrifying especially if you have a large ego. After the experience I was so much more appreciative of everything because of how scary it was.

If what you're asking is that if you take the SN will the hallucinations before you die be a terrifying experience, the answer in my opinion is maybe yes or maybe no. I think it comes down to whether you are satisfied with your life and feel like you accomplished what you wanted to accomplish. If you are feeling good going into your death, then you will be sent off with a peaceful trip that will be 'heaven'. If you have many regrets and down thoughts(like many people who commit suicide) your trip might be more like 'hell'. I have been wanting to CTB for some time but this is what terrifies me and keeps me from doing it.

It is possible though that if you shoot yourself in brain, then your brain will not be able to release the DMT, and you will neither experience 'heaven' nor 'hell' but simply nothing.

Ah shit, well that's scary. Yeah, I have a tremendous amount of regrets. I'm guessing I would experience "hell" for a long time then. Maybe shotgun to the brainstem is the best bet.

Goddamn it, wish I knew all of this when I could still have done what I wanted to do with my life.

It was completely terrifying while I was feeling it. It was as if I had no ego and no concept of myself which was fucking scary. Humans these days(myself included) create a complex identity which they think is them but at the end of the day we're just animals and all of that identity you create for yourself is complete BS. Having that identity taken away from you and being put into that animal state is fucking terrifying especially if you have a large ego. After the experience I was so much more appreciative of everything because of how scary it was.

If what you're asking is that if you take the SN will the hallucinations before you die be a terrifying experience, the answer in my opinion is maybe yes or maybe no. I think it comes down to whether you are satisfied with your life and feel like you accomplished what you wanted to accomplish. If you are feeling good going into your death, then you will be sent off with a peaceful trip that will be 'heaven'. If you have many regrets and down thoughts(like many people who commit suicide) your trip might be more like 'hell'. I have been wanting to CTB for some time but this is what terrifies me and keeps me from doing it.

It is possible though that if you shoot yourself in brain, then your brain will not be able to release the DMT, and you will neither experience 'heaven' nor 'hell' but simply nothing.

DMT and the Pineal Gland

Does the pineal gland really produce DMT? What about the role of DMT in birth and death? We answer these and a few other burning questions.

www.healthline.com

Thought this was interesting.

 

[catch99]

Ah shit, well that's scary. Yeah, I have a tremendous amount of regrets. I'm guessing I would experience "hell" for a long time then. Maybe shotgun to the brainstem is the best bet.

Goddamn it, wish I knew all of this when I could still have done what I wanted to do with my life.

I'm not going to try to change your mind one way or another as I'm a firm believer in choice but I would say don't give up on your life too early. See a therapist or if you would like to try to self medicate maybe try the DMT. You can order some off the dark web relatively easily(PM me if you need help) and it might just turn your life around. Don't give up too early friend :)

 

[the_final_countdown]

If I had a shotgun, I could probably end my life. It's hard to end your life unless you're in a certain emotional state.

There's so much time to regret your actions after drinking SN. So much fear and anxiety.

I'd really like a gun...Wouldn't mind someone shooting me either. Back of the head.

I'd give all the money I have for someone to do that for me.

 

[rotten]

I know someone who has a gun. Sometimes I stare at it while thinking about blowing my brains out, but I worry about getting the person in trouble.
(It's not possible for me to get my own)

 

[catch99]

If I had a shotgun, I could probably end my life. It's hard to end your life unless you're in a certain emotional state.

There's so much time to regret your actions after drinking SN. So much fear and anxiety.

I'd really like a gun...Wouldn't mind someone shooting me either. Back of the head.

I'd give all the money I have for someone to do that for me.

Same here. Would love for someone to shoot me in the back of the head like George killed Lenny in 'Of Mice and Men'

 

[win32]

You think a gun is better than SN?

That a trigger pull leading to death/unconsciousness before the brain can react is better than drinking a nasty liquid and dealing with discomfort and vomiting (even with anti-emetics), with the chance of being found? Yes.

Even if you fuck up with a gun, as long as it's powerful like a shotgun or magnum, and you didn't do something stupid (that is, aim anywhere but pointing up inside your mouth), you should bleed out while unconscious before you can be saved.

 

[LastFlowers]

You think a gun is better than SN?

I think it's more instantaneous if done correctly. Honestly it would probably be my preferred method if I had access to one. I have SN and I am not looking forward to sitting and waiting while the poison courses through me and I perhaps feel the oxygen depletion in a somewhat long, drawn out process. I hope it won't be as distressing as I fear, but I also doubt it is as pleasant or peaceful as some make it out to be. But I have no other choice, what I need most out of my method now, is for it to be successful.

 

[catch99]

I think it's more instantaneous if done correctly. Honestly it would probably be my preferred method if I had access to one. I have SN and I am not looking forward to sitting and waiting while the poison courses through me and I perhaps feel the oxygen depletion in a somewhat long, drawn out process. I hope it won't be as distressing as I fear, but I also doubt it is as pleasant or peaceful as some make it out to be. But I have no other choice, what I need most out of my method now, is for it to be successful.

I also think SN is a lot fucking worse than people on here make it out to be. IMO that's a terrible fucking way to go. Also, if you think you want to die now, wait until after you survive a nearly lethal dose of SN. You could suffer from anywhere from brain damage and blindness to being a complete vegetable.

 

[LastFlowers]

I also think SN is a lot fucking worse than people on here make it out to be. IMO that's a terrible fucking way to go. Also, if you think you want to die now, wait until after you survive a nearly lethal dose of SN. You could suffer from anywhere from brain damage and blindness to being a complete vegetable.

Do you know of anyone who has survived a lethal dose without being found?
If you have cases where someone incurrred brain damage or became the equivalent of a vegetable, please share them.
I need to be informed, but I also need to die, I am done with this life of torture.

I'm thinking in joining the police just to get a gun

Some people who aren't even suicidal do that lol, or they do it because of some power complex, or because the uniform looks cool. Obviously not all cops, but man, a good majority have major fucking issues and should not be wielding any level of authority over others, never mind be carrying a lethal weapon.