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fyer

fyer

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Oct 27, 2025
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Hello, I haven't read nor heard anything about the condition until today, but it sounds as if there's a wide range of symptoms. There's hope for you. Research maybe quietly being conducted in places across the globe. Maybe somehere they'll be seeking clinical trial enrollment? I queried AI and it said it found no active trials. But you can write to the lead investigators at
Patient‑led networks and research summaries pointing to ongoing biological research and investigator contacts (Baylor College of Medicine, Brigham & Women's investigators previously involved), which may lead to future recruitment opportunities. You sound like a good soul, the LORD created, provides and saves souls, you being good have no worries. My girlfriend had a traumatic spinal injury. She went from a active vibrant 30 year old to a cripple overnight, but eventually regained her ability to walk after several years of therapy and many surgeries, she had young children when she was injured, she functioned for nearly 30 additional years living with incredible pain. Yet she was prescribed massive doses of prescription pain killers including Methadone pills/liquid (20 years) and Fentanyl for 10 years. She still found value in living life even with the continuous pain and continued surgeries (she had about 11 sugeries) as her condition progressively deteriorating her abilities and was in a wheelchair for 2 years before she eventually succumbed to a infection affecting her spine, kidneys, heart and lungs and passed away three years ago. You probably should give yourself more time. If you're in pain I know factually her doctors told her she could be on Methadone for the rest of her life, even if it took her into her 80's. Look into alleviating the misery anyway possible until the condition either corrects itself or there's a trial and better ways to manage it or a cure. If you're in pain Methadone is readily available in pill form and relatively inexpensive. Its easy to say, but you"re too young and you have good ideals, there must be hope, so don't give up yet.
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i just can't bear it anymore, i cry almost daily, its simply unbearable. i really always wanted to give good things to the world, but i simply can't take this anymore. i am scared of death but i am actually bed bound. i am so miserable
 
Betsy007

Betsy007

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Nov 7, 2022
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We've never met, but you sound like a really good guy. For what it's worth, I'll remember you and your story for however long I'm here. One way or another, I know you'll find relief and peace. :heart:
 
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fyer

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We've never met, but you sound like a really good guy. For what it's worth, I'll remember you and your story for however long I'm here. One way or another, I know you'll find relief and peace. :heart:
Thank you for kind words. i ve been experiencing cruelty for basically all my life, but i ve always been strong in terms of mentality, i was unfairly judged by my closest family. But i didn't care now i simply cannot function. i can't watch videos, i can't play games, basically hell on earth i didnt deserve. i was in the er begging to admit me to hospital and he just rejected me, saying he can't see indications for me to be admitted. i don't want to die but i simply cannot bear this debilitating pain and i have basically no choice
I really hoped that i'll become a doctor, i was at medical university for 2 years, probably the best one in my country, but academic medicine let me down so badly, they simply destroyed my health and life. i can't believe in what happened. probably, if i am not to scared i will go with sn tomorrow, but the fear of unknown is the thing that stops me from doing it already
 
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