I just want to kill myself do badly

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I dont know what to do anymore. I am tired of this mental mess. I am tired of irreversible trauma. I am tired of working
My fuvkng therapist told me in order to recover I need to work at it. BUT I AM TIRED OF FUCKING WORKING!
I didn't sign up for this hard battle that not everyone can do. Its not fir that I wasn't blessed with a loving family and an easy life. Its not fair that everything is so hard for me. I hate this life and iw ate a new one ASAP. I want to stop the pain ASAP. I want to kill muself ASAP

But then.....why is death so scary? Why is it so hard to die? I dont know. I dont know.....I dont know.....

 

[DyingAlf]

I hear you & can relate.
Sorry for your struggle.

 

[Ghost2211]

I understand what you mean by not wanting to work for it. It's a continuous uphill battle. I don't want to do it either. I do it because I have to. My therapist likes to tell me I'm making the choice to live, but I suspect it's not a choice in the true sense for a lot of us.

Do you have a method planned? I'm wondering because you're showing signs of hitting a breaking point, and I'm worried you'll get impulsive. I respect your choice to carry on or not.

 

[DeathIsTheWayOut99]

I understand what you mean by not wanting to work for it. It's a continuous uphill battle. I don't want to do it either. I do it because I have to. My therapist likes to tell me I'm making the choice to live, but I suspect it's not a choice in the true sense for a lot of us.

Do you have a method planned? I'm wondering because you're showing signs of hitting a breaking point, and I'm worried you'll get impulsive. I respect your choice to carry on or not.

Im thinking of writing up a suicide note for everyone in my family, and then jumping off a bridge

 

[Ghost2211]

Im thinking of writing up a suicide note for everyone in my family, and then jumping off a bridge

I see, have you researched the hight? You can check the map of your area for the name, and then google it. Don't say what it's called here of course.