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trulyfeelhopeless

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but I can't for some reason. Only when I hear a Christmas song I used to love bc it reminds of the person I used to be… I can't wait to finish work get home and crawl into my bed
 
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im sorry, yes christmas can bring many memories to us. Have a good rest when you get home. Nothing wrong with hiding on a duvet, that's what I'm actually doing right now . Hugs
 
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I cannot cry either even know I never want to be alive. I feel empty, like I have already died in a way. Living is very painful. I wish you the best.
 
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trulyfeelhopeless

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im sorry, yes christmas can bring many memories to us. Have a good rest when you get home. Nothing wrong with hiding on a duvet, that's what I'm actually doing right now . Hugs
Too many memories-the annoying person that loves Xmas way too much-that WAS me. Now my heart races anywhere I go w the songs and decorations and ppl smiling and being happy. Thank you 💖 even tho I must say now rest is never good anymore, just feels like getting closer to the next day filled with nothing for me. I hope your duvet is super comfy and you're relaxed ☺️
 
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ket

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is there anything worse than the holidays? the music is overplayed and generally sucks and then you feel extra miserable because everyone else seems to love it and you're expected to just fake it or else you're ruining christmas.
 
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I also can't cry but I like it! Sweet dreams
 
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feel something

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im sorry you feel this way op :heart: this holiday period must be hard for you. sending you lots of hugs
 
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meetapple

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I used to love it when I was a child (even though I wasn't Christian) possibly because I had been brainwashed. Now it just feels like an ordinary day which it is.
 
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trulyfeelhopeless

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im sorry you feel this way op :heart: this holiday period must be hard for you. sending you lots of hugs
I'm new here what does op mean lol . It's the hardest when we all feel the way we do. Sending you lots back 💖
is there anything worse than the holidays? the music is overplayed and generally sucks and then you feel extra miserable because everyone else seems to love it and you're expected to just fake it or else you're ruining christmas.
Exactly man like I'm living in my head wanting to ctb and ppl are singing it's the most wonderful time of the year, happy I'm not alone in this feeling
 
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Sending you a.big virtual.hug❤
 
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I'm actually sobbing right now listening to no peace - sam smith . feels better than anxiety
 
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trulyfeelhopeless

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Sending you a.big virtual.hug❤
Thank you need any kind of love that makes me feel worthwhile
I cannot cry either even know I never want to be alive. I feel empty, like I have already died in a way. Living is very painful. I wish you the best.
You couldn't have said it better-living is pure agony right now
 
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