erdbeeren
Student
- Oct 13, 2021
- 100
Everyone in my life is selfish and fake. I am talked about behind my back and insulted. The only people who show some care are therapists (because they are paid to do so).
I wish I could just have one positive relationship. Things to bond over with no harsh judgment or facades. Sure, it's nearly impossible to get along all the time, but the good times should greatly outweigh the bad.
But that is not going to come into fruition. People have expressed their general disdain for a socially inept mf like myself. Others think I'm rude, retarded (derogatory sense), boring, and look like a psycho (whatever that's supposed to mean). I don't want to befriend individuals who are so depraved, but I still long for human connection since it's ingrained into our dna.
I've also tried making friends online which thankfully has been somewhat more successful. Though, most of these successes happened years ago so I have no meaningful relationships with anyone as of now. People would interact with the shy, but imaginative child I grew from, but not the reclusive, paranoid adult I'm becoming.
I wish I could just have one positive relationship. Things to bond over with no harsh judgment or facades. Sure, it's nearly impossible to get along all the time, but the good times should greatly outweigh the bad.
But that is not going to come into fruition. People have expressed their general disdain for a socially inept mf like myself. Others think I'm rude, retarded (derogatory sense), boring, and look like a psycho (whatever that's supposed to mean). I don't want to befriend individuals who are so depraved, but I still long for human connection since it's ingrained into our dna.
I've also tried making friends online which thankfully has been somewhat more successful. Though, most of these successes happened years ago so I have no meaningful relationships with anyone as of now. People would interact with the shy, but imaginative child I grew from, but not the reclusive, paranoid adult I'm becoming.