Discussion I just want peace

[Crematoryy]

Not having to deal with anything else, not existing here anymore. Knowing that this was never my place -- I belonged to nothing, I came to build nothing. Finally being able to rest, away from everyone who would come to my restlessness. Absolute abstention from any experience (tactile, auditory, palate, visual, or auditory). No cognitive processes operating, and therefore no sensations; no self-conscious matter, just a cluster of astonished atoms. Without having to carry your own weight again.

Maybe this is a utopia? Perhaps nothing can disappear completely and there is a constant remnant? I just hope this isn't as truculent as it is now.

 

[Red.one]

I tried to kill mf, more than once. One time it was close - doctors were shocked with amount of 'stuff' in my bloodstream. When I was out, there was nothing. No light, no peace, no "nothing" that we dream of. It was just like a sleep, that feels like no sleep - eyes shut, eyes open. I believe there's no nothing. You want nothing, but your nothing is not a peaceful, dark rest kind nothing. I think it's just a stop. You want rest, you want your "peaceful nothing", but it doesn't exist.
Try to make your life the utopia you dream of. I have no idea what your struggles are, but remember, it can always get better. Go to therapy, if it's not working - find a different therapist. Make friends, it's not easy - I know - but it's possible. Break free and live your life like you want. And if you don't know - try new things. Try to find your way.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting peace, to permanently not exist is all I hope for, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, I just want to never exist ever again, I hope you find the peace you search for.