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Butterfly-death

Butterfly-death

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Apr 5, 2024
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Please I cant anymore. I hate this why did I have to be born at all? I just want out. I can't even cry now because I've been crying so much lately. I'm so tired of living. I just want it all to end. Why why why why why me? I feel so horrible the worst I have ever been. I want to be nothing. I hate my life I hate it I hate it I hate it. I hate being here I feel so trapped. Let it end already. Goddamnit mom and dad how could you bring me into the world!? Now all I can do is suffer until the freedom of death! I fucking hate it all.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,790
I really understand, I just always find it so torturous to suffer in this terrible, dreadful existence and I wish I never suffered more than anything, it's just so horrible to me how this existence was even imposed at all causing all this pain and suffering as a result and I always suffer so much from being trapped in this existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer ever again, I hope you find freedom from suffering.
 
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glowing.purple.aura

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Sep 15, 2025
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This is exactly what the inside of my head sounds like all day and it's awful. I hope that things get better for you soon and that you are able to finally find peace.
 
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dearlydeparted44

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May 21, 2025
295
I feel this. This world and its humans are all just too much for me. They're draining. I've arrived at a point where I feel like there's nothing here for me. There are no relationships worth getting into nor connections worth making. The things that we're told bring happiness are fleeting and few between. I am also wrestling with the realizations from my youth. My parents hated me and allowed abuse to happen to me. My mind is detoxing from all that, and it's killing me. I just want to be gone already.
 
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