I just wanna leave

[☆SadUnicorn☆]

I just wanna die. I wish there was some easy way out that doesn't have a way back. I only could slit wrist rlly atm but it's never possible I never can deep enough. Idk what to do. I just can't handle all this pain over and over again. I rlly don't want this anymore

 

[lemmeeleev]

Don't even bother with wrist cutting. You will most likely fail, there are many other better methods on this site. There are no easy painless methods, but almost anything is better than cutting.

 

[faex42]

I have to wait. Half of the day I resented that I still had to persist. I've always liked tall structures. I used to make measurements in my head as to whether the height of different buildings, telephone poles, etc would be high enough to ensure I would be gone. Do I have the courage? Not today but I suspect that when I am finally completely overwhelmed, I won't need courage. I did write an e-mail to two relatives entitled "In case of Death or Incapacitation" so they have a way of finding this place and what steps they might wish to take if I am unable or dead. I didn't mention suicide although they both know I have considered that an option for years. They also know I have one final obligation to fulfill before I am free to this existence of melancholia, despair and anxiety so they won't be too troubled.

 

[KatieW]

I just wanna die. I wish there was some easy way out that doesn't have a way back. I only could slit wrist rlly atm but it's never possible I never can deep enough. Idk what to do. I just can't handle all this pain over and over again. I rlly don't want this anymore

I have never considered no-good wristcutting, but symptomatic anxiety plus cowardice seem to thwart my hanging, drowning and asphyxiation attempts. There is a not-too-faraway cliff that I've been pumping up courage to jump. Too afraid. I just need someone to flip drunken freaky me overboard - all those I have approached with the proposal firmly declined and threatened to turn me in to the law :(

 

[Sickman75]

I just wanna die. I wish there was some easy way out that doesn't have a way back. I only could slit wrist rlly atm but it's never possible I never can deep enough. Idk what to do. I just can't handle all this pain over and over again. I rlly don't want this anymore

I feel the same too

 

[DontFearTheReaper]

If you jump make sure its high enough. It needs to be higher when there is grass or soft underneath. You dont want to survive severely disabled.

 

[faex42]

If you jump make sure its high enough. It needs to be higher when there is grass or soft underneath. You dont want to survive severely disabled.

Either water or concrete. There's a bridge about an hour's drive from my apartment once called the Jumper's Bridge because a number of people had committed suicide successfully. Only local people know about it but I had a friend who lived near by who told me about it. She had lost a friend who jumped. Unfortunately not all who have attempted died. I had my doubts after I saw a video of the bridge and kids playing in the river. In any event the last I heard they were planning to erect anti-suicide barriers. I became less suicidal and put it out of mind. Some time ago I discussed with a friend who was open with me about also feeling suicidal about jumping off a mountain top which is famous in the area for its views but not suicide . We both felt there was no guarantee that the slop of the mountain might break a jump. So I usually consider buildings. The last thing I want to is to fail and end up severely disabled.

 

[Sick Boy]

I can relate to,I want to stop existing too,just want to leave this world,but is not easy,a failed ctb attempt can end up in brain damage
and been in a vegetative state,or you can leave traumatized innocent people,it takes time and motivation to do it properly and 100% effective

 

[snowman626]

There are no easy painless methods

I think there are. The "night night" method is painless and quick. Although im still learning how it all works

 

[snowman626]

I can relate to,I want to stop existing too,just want to leave this world,but is not easy,a failed ctb attempt can end up in brain damage
and been in a vegetative state,or you can leave traumatized innocent people,it takes time and motivation to do it properly and 100% effective

If im going to ctb I will make sure I leave myself zero chance of rescue. For example going deep into the mountains and finding a concealed spot (like a cave) to do it in. If my primary method leaves me brain dead, the dehydration/starvation will be my plan b. No chance of living the rest of my life in some veg state

The worst place to do it is in your bedroom with other people in the house.