not_a_robot
"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
- May 30, 2019
- 2,121
Ordered my Sn from that site named after A big river and rain forest. I will try not to spell out the site name in this post because I don't want to trigger G algorithms.
Sn arrived yesterday. Some other items on the same order were clothes I need to return. Needed them to change some details on the return for me so I called customer service.
Told them I need help on return.
Guy stalled a minute with
"so glad you're a prime member" type of shit.
Then he flat out goes
"Before I can proceed with this return I have to ask you. How are you feeling today?"
(*DING DING DING* )
I went "meh, you know, not great but ok."
He didn't like the sound of that.
So he goes
"And how are you feeling about other things in your life? Are things ok?"
I went
"The rest of my life is going like this return. I messed it up the first time and now I'm trying to fix it."
The phrase "trying to fix" seemed to satisfy them. Plus I put a lot of emphasis throughout the call on *future* things like
"when my refund is processed *next week*"
"I will re-order those pants in a smaller size *next week*"
"Go ahead and refund it to my A account, I will spend it *next month* anyway"
Even made sure to talk optimistically and joke with myself while he had me on hold (they listen while you're on hold), although I did make one joke about suffocating myself with the plastic garment bag in my packaging.
Joked around about ordering wrong size clothes, etc.
So I hope all the "future" talk counts as a "promise not to harm myself today".
I just played the whole thing out as if I had no idea why he was being so nosy, but I knew immediately. They can not only see that I bought Sn but also that I've searched meto and other suicide supplies. So they know exactly what I am up to. Hopefully they don't send anyone to "check on me."
FB, G, A, NF, and all other huge sites have been equipped with algorithms to detect suicidal patterns of speech and behavior and automatically dispatch police for a welfare check. I assume I triggered something like that.
What I can't figure is, if they're so fucking "concerned" about me, why not call me to see how I'm doing *before* sending the Sn? If I hadn't bought the wrong size pants and called for help returning them, would they have just let me suicide in peace with my Sn?
A has called me out of the blue several times before just to ask about changes I made on my account, so if they're so worried about suicide, why wait and make "counselling" me a priority *after* I buy the wrong pants and call in myself? I could have used my Sn Monday morning when it arrived and been dead, so why wait for me to call in, when they have ever been shy about calling me before for other stuff?
And I definitely didn't imagine it, he asked me three times about my life and how I feel before he would proceed with my return. Vague answers did not satisfy him. This definitely was not just small talk.
I am disgusted at the extent of our surveillance culture. A can see clearly from the pattern of my purchases that I am a shut-in who can barely leave my apartment. Who the fuck are they to give a fuck whether I suicide? Is my 400$ a month in food and household supply purchases such a fucking priority for them? Jesus fucking christ.
Anyway, be aware that all big websites have these algorithms. Be prepared with "future" statements at all times, even in unrelated conversations, because they won't tell you you're being evaluated for suicidality, and you're also supposed to be too dumb to notice it.
And be careful what size pants you buy online.
Will add article about algorithms shortly.
Also, A should not be able to see my activity here directly if they are spying on devices because I use a different device for financial transactions, but who knows?
It's the Panopticon. They all see everything.
Here is one article on it but I recommend to do a search on "suicide prevention algorithms" and read a few different articles, learn as much as you can, don't get "rescued". Fuck there's an ambulance driving by right now it just stopped, don'tbeforme, don'tbeforme!
Sn arrived yesterday. Some other items on the same order were clothes I need to return. Needed them to change some details on the return for me so I called customer service.
Told them I need help on return.
Guy stalled a minute with
"so glad you're a prime member" type of shit.
Then he flat out goes
"Before I can proceed with this return I have to ask you. How are you feeling today?"
(*DING DING DING* )
I went "meh, you know, not great but ok."
He didn't like the sound of that.
So he goes
"And how are you feeling about other things in your life? Are things ok?"
I went
"The rest of my life is going like this return. I messed it up the first time and now I'm trying to fix it."
The phrase "trying to fix" seemed to satisfy them. Plus I put a lot of emphasis throughout the call on *future* things like
"when my refund is processed *next week*"
"I will re-order those pants in a smaller size *next week*"
"Go ahead and refund it to my A account, I will spend it *next month* anyway"
Even made sure to talk optimistically and joke with myself while he had me on hold (they listen while you're on hold), although I did make one joke about suffocating myself with the plastic garment bag in my packaging.
Joked around about ordering wrong size clothes, etc.
So I hope all the "future" talk counts as a "promise not to harm myself today".
I just played the whole thing out as if I had no idea why he was being so nosy, but I knew immediately. They can not only see that I bought Sn but also that I've searched meto and other suicide supplies. So they know exactly what I am up to. Hopefully they don't send anyone to "check on me."
FB, G, A, NF, and all other huge sites have been equipped with algorithms to detect suicidal patterns of speech and behavior and automatically dispatch police for a welfare check. I assume I triggered something like that.
What I can't figure is, if they're so fucking "concerned" about me, why not call me to see how I'm doing *before* sending the Sn? If I hadn't bought the wrong size pants and called for help returning them, would they have just let me suicide in peace with my Sn?
A has called me out of the blue several times before just to ask about changes I made on my account, so if they're so worried about suicide, why wait and make "counselling" me a priority *after* I buy the wrong pants and call in myself? I could have used my Sn Monday morning when it arrived and been dead, so why wait for me to call in, when they have ever been shy about calling me before for other stuff?
And I definitely didn't imagine it, he asked me three times about my life and how I feel before he would proceed with my return. Vague answers did not satisfy him. This definitely was not just small talk.
I am disgusted at the extent of our surveillance culture. A can see clearly from the pattern of my purchases that I am a shut-in who can barely leave my apartment. Who the fuck are they to give a fuck whether I suicide? Is my 400$ a month in food and household supply purchases such a fucking priority for them? Jesus fucking christ.
Anyway, be aware that all big websites have these algorithms. Be prepared with "future" statements at all times, even in unrelated conversations, because they won't tell you you're being evaluated for suicidality, and you're also supposed to be too dumb to notice it.
And be careful what size pants you buy online.
Will add article about algorithms shortly.
Also, A should not be able to see my activity here directly if they are spying on devices because I use a different device for financial transactions, but who knows?
It's the Panopticon. They all see everything.
Here is one article on it but I recommend to do a search on "suicide prevention algorithms" and read a few different articles, learn as much as you can, don't get "rescued". Fuck there's an ambulance driving by right now it just stopped, don'tbeforme, don'tbeforme!
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