I just feel like my friends would be better off if I were dead.

[philmore444]

No matter what they say, actions speak louder than words. and I feel like they are a lot happier without me.

I just feel like my friends both new and old are moving on without me, and I can't really do much or stop them, but it kind of hurts won't lie.

I just feel like I fucked up so many friendships that they don't wanna do with me, my excess venting about my life really fucked it up.
even when I moved out from my abusive parents, they still don't wanna do anything with me.

I hosted a birthday party recently in my friend group, but they didn't really stay. I know I cant force them but it kind of hurt.

I matter to nobody and no one.

I just feel so worthless no matter what

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm sorry to hear that.

My friends would miss me, but I wish I was dead to the whole world sometimes.

 

[𖣂𖣂𖣂.]

They weren't your friends if they judge you for how you feel. I've burned bridges with people because they didn't have the best intentions for me which my life was on the line for what they did to me. Also people think the world revolves around you. If you feel like you will be judged on how you feel to them cut them off it will suck but in the long run if you allow them to act that way towards you it will just make a deeper hole for you.

 

[_Alfarooq_]

No matter what they say, actions speak louder than words. and I feel like they are a lot happier without me.

I just feel like my friends both new and old are moving on without me, and I can't really do much or stop them, but it kind of hurts won't lie.

I just feel like I fucked up so many friendships that they don't wanna do with me, my excess venting about my life really fucked it up.
even when I moved out from my abusive parents, they still don't wanna do anything with me.

I hosted a birthday party recently in my friend group, but they didn't really stay. I know I cant force them but it kind of hurt.

I matter to nobody and no one.

I just feel so worthless no matter what

Everyone has abandoned me too. I am so lost in this life. I have no friends and no one will care, I have been wanting people to care for years now but now i am over it. I dont want any stupid bastard to care anymore.

 

[アホペンギン]

Yeah i'm in a similar situation so i really understand where you're coming from. Although i don't have many friends who i interact with in person, i still have a few online friends. I recently joined a discord server that they were in and i read through the chat history and i realized that before i was part of the server the chat looked quite different. And i feel like I don't belong around them, nor do i feel comfortable talking to them despite us being friends for multiple years. In addition, not long ago, i opened up to them about how i intend to ctb in the near future and i feel like they didn't take me seriously because they hate me. So, when i really ctb i think they'll just brush it off and move on with their lives, as if i never existed. I don't think they care about me even if i care a lot about them. I don't think anyone cares about me so i'd like to see how they would react if i just ended up ctb one day, randomly.