I hope I am not talking about suicide foreverI

[Lost Magic]

While it is great to discuss the subject so openly to you great people, I just hope I am not still discussing it 8 or 10 years down the line. Let's just say I don't want to be old, grey and tired and still discussing how I want to die. You will be crushed, survival Instinct bwa hahahaha

 

[the_final_countdown]

A lot of people who end up killing themselves on here do so in about a year or a few months.

They just sort of pop in, take the information, and end it.

But I understand what you mean about not wanting to prolong your misery.

I totally get it.

Ive been looking for a method to end the madness. Poison is too slow for me. I'm going to panic and scream.

 

[motel rooms]

While it is great to discuss the subject so openly to you great people, I just hope I am not still discussing it 8 or 10 years down the line

I'm pretty sure that SaSu members actually prevent more suicides than all the pro-lifers combined

 

[WornOutLife]

Haha I've thought about this more than once and yes, it's kinda sad but in my case, I think that no matter what happens to me, I'll always be suicidal so I'll need to talk about it somehow because normal people just don't get it!!

Anyway, I'll probably be at peace in less than 7 years.

 

[motel rooms]

Haha I've thought about this more than once and yes, it's kinda sad but in my case, I think that no matter what happens to me, I'll always be suicidal so I'll need to talk about it somehow because normal people just don't get it!!

Anyway, I'll probably be at peace in less than 7 years.

You're 33 - don't you hear Jesus calling out to you? Just walk towards the light, just follow His light before you turn 34, boy!

 

[Wrennie]

A lot of people who end up killing themselves on here do so in about a year or a few months.

They just sort of pop in, take the information, and end it.

But I understand what you mean about not wanting to prolong your misery.

I totally get it.

Ive been looking for a method to end the madness. Poison is too slow for me. I'm going to panic and scream.

"Poison" (aka SN) is way too slow of a method for me as well - and that is the only reason I'm still here despite me possessing it.

 

[Bagger]

I lost my love, i'm loosing friends, and i'm slowly loosing my mind. SS just helps me going through all of this. SN is in my reach anytime, i'm just moving back and forth. Because of my mom. She is still here, and i made some promises to her. It's not her fault i'm such failure, well maybe it is a little, maybe more than just a little, but she still don't deserve to see me dead. Her past decisions were made with pure, good intentions. They didn't worked out the way she intended, but... that's life i think. My promises are main reason for staying alive and semi-active here. At the same time I regret not ctbing on impulse in 2019. I'm torn apart inside.

 

[Lost Magic]

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A lot of people who end up killing themselves on here do so in about a year or a few months.

They just sort of pop in, take the information, and end it.

But I understand what you mean about not wanting to prolong your misery.

I totally get it.

Ive been looking for a method to end the madness. Poison is too slow for me. I'm going to panic and scream.

I lost my love, i'm loosing friends, and i'm slowly loosing my mind. SS just helps me going through all of this. SN is in my reach anytime, i'm just moving back and forth. Because of my mom. She is still here, and i made some promises to her. It's not her fault i'm such failure, well maybe it is a little, maybe more than just a little, but she still don't deserve to see me dead. Her past decisions were made with pure, good intentions. They didn't worked out the way she intended, but... that's life i think. My promises are main reason for staying alive and semi-active here. At the same time I regret not ctbing on impulse in 2019. I'm torn apart inside.

I lost my mother to cancer a couple of years ago and I haven't been good since. I honestly have no clue as to why I am still here. When she drew her last breath in hospital, I quietly said: 'I won't be far behind you mum.' But I am still here, despite having the Sodium Nitrite. Still, I know my day's are numbered.

 

[FuneralCry]

Old age is what I fear. If I did not ctb knowing my luck I would live until I am really old, stuck with lots of health problems that do not kill me but cause me misery. It is hard to die due to survival instinct but it is always possible. As long as I am on this earth these thoughts will be there in my mind. Non existence is what I want.