I have no one to talk to

[testingthis101010]

I have no one to really talk to.

Few years back, I used this youtube channel to just vent my frustration: https://www.youtube.com/@depressioneuthanasie8476

Currently, I am feeling more and more empty and it seems that the older I get the less purpose I see in life.

Saturdays are the cruellest, for it's then, I don't use alcohol to drawn my sorrows.

Writing this is too hard and my pain won't go away. Time can't heal it.

Four years trapped in the echo chamber (youtube) of my own despair - four years that feel like a single, unending breath. So what? Another decade? Two? What is the purpose of it all? Hint: There is none.

I was, just like millions around me, sacrified so that better genes can thrive and natural selection can play its course. It is brutal, unfair, whatever negative word you can find, but it is this way and nature just doesn't care at the end. At the grand scheme of things, I am nothing.

My self perception is giving me the illusion of importance and this is this "importance" that is tricking me into living another useless day.

When will the freedom of oblivion, that same oblivion in which I rested from minus infinity to 1980, finally be mine?

 

[lifelite]

I don't have anyone to talk to either. I am glad that you didn't find it in alcohol. I did, and it's horrible. All the best to you!

 

[gbi2]

Same here. Even friends have said they are always at the end of the phone but when I call they say they will ring back but they almost never do.
I don't mind people having their own lives. But don't say something that isn't true. Don't speak like I can call anytime and you'll be available for a chat when you can't.

 

[DeadHead]

I am going through the hell of a brain tumour and also have no one to talk to. I'm terrified, the symptoms are getting worse fast and I'm entirely alone and self sufficient. I keep hanging on out of rage at the corrupt medical practitioners who put me in this position when it didn't have to be this way. But at some point I need to go. I will lose the ability to chew and swallow, I need to be gone before then. I wanted to self publish a book on medical corruption but I think I'm going to run out of time.

 

[Hollowman]

I can relate to a lot of what you wrote. You can dm me if you want, I'm not the best conversationalist but I'll listen.

 

[NoOneLovesMiMi]

I vent here.
Make comments on Instagram.
But no one to talk to either.
But at the same time I'm glad I don't.
Feels like torture my last days alone just eating, sleeping and scrolling but it's probably for the best.