Venting I have no future

[lonergirl_26]

I'm in a weird stage of wanting to try and have a life and then die
And wanting to fuck myself up, spiral and die
Today I was looking at volunteer work but there's none near me for what I want to do
I can't go to college
My bf doesn't understand, he did well in school and went to university. Plus he's 28. I left school at 14 because of mental health and have no GCSE's or anything
My dream is to own a rescue for small and exotic animals. I love small animals especially guinea pigs (I have 8) but I want to be able to help and work will all exotic animals

 

[LastNite]

cant you get a GED or something like that idk how it is in the UK. I am trying to get my own GED Im also in the same spot. I feel like I want to get my shit together but the next second everything feels terrible.

I heard a GED can get you a lot of jobs same as a diploma. People have had very successful lives without a diploma and just a GED.