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tweaka2x

tweaka2x

CCCdreams
May 26, 2023
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Man. I finally have it. Knowing I have F I am in peace. I have come so close to death so many times. But now. Now I will do it right. Now my fate is sealed. It's time to say goodbye.
 
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lonely and depresse

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Jun 29, 2024
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Good luck
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,197
Luck to you on your journey, I am saving up clean time to use F effectively, I wish you nothing but peace. Listen to good music.
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Specialist
Mar 18, 2024
370
Hoping your find the peace you crave.
 
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Franko782

Franko782

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Jul 25, 2022
1
I know that life is not fair,
Before you leave I give you a hug goodbye
Bye
go calmly
 
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dietcokecan

dietcokecan

The Cosmos is all that is or was or ever will be.
Jun 25, 2024
33
Man. I finally have it. Knowing I have F I am in peace. I have come so close to death so many times. But now. Now I will do it right. Now my fate is sealed. It's time to say goodbye.
What's F?
 
feelinggloomy

feelinggloomy

Experienced
May 29, 2024
252
Peace
 
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etherealspring

etherealspring

can someone just kill me already
Mar 27, 2024
281
i wish you the best of luck and i hope you find the peace you've been searching for on the other side <3
 
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lita-lassi

lita-lassi

let me spell it out for you: go to hell
Sep 25, 2023
614
so sorry it came to this, i hope its easy and painless 🖤
 
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m1ll1pede

m1ll1pede

still here sadly
Jun 2, 2024
60
I wish you luck op..
 
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tvo

tvo

Student
Apr 3, 2024
110
Goodbye, have a smooth transition.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
4,223
Hope you find your peace.
 
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Not A Fan

Not A Fan

don't avoid the void
Jun 22, 2024
189
Luck to you on your journey, I am saving up clean time to use F effectively, I wish you nothing but peace. Listen to good music.
How much time do you think you need to have? I have a tolerance. I use 2 or 3 small shots a day. How long do you think someone might have to WD before you could use it to ctb?
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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Jun 2, 2024
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How much time do you think you need to have? I have a tolerance. I use 2 or 3 small shots a day. How long do you think someone might have to WD before you could use it to ctb?
The WD from F, differs person to person, but once you get a couple weeks off it your body starts to reset. I have seven months as of right now, I want more than that so my tolerance doesnt shoot up again and I have to start over.
 
Not A Fan

Not A Fan

don't avoid the void
Jun 22, 2024
189
The WD from F, differs person to person, but once you get a couple weeks off it your body starts to reset. I have seven months as of right now, I want more than that so my tolerance doesnt shoot up again and I have to start over.
I've withdrawn it from it before, but only due to being in jail or running out of money, so the issue of willpower was irrelevant.

With what I've got now, I won't be running out for a very, very long time. For some reason, I doubt I could kick it if I have a huge brick of the stuff sitting in the house. I'm trying to avoid suffering, so I probably won't be trying that.

But wow... 7 months is a long time... how do you feel?
 
billie

billie

take me back to the night we met
Mar 31, 2024
622
I hope you found the peace you were looking for
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
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I've withdrawn it from it before, but only due to being in jail or running out of money, so the issue of willpower was irrelevant.

With what I've got now, I won't be running out for a very, very long time. For some reason, I doubt I could kick it if I have a huge brick of the stuff sitting in the house. I'm trying to avoid suffering, so I probably won't be trying that.

But wow... 7 months is a long time... how do you feel?
Tbh it's maddening, I know exactly where to go etc. I think a lot of people with perhaps a differing outlook would feel good right now, all I wanna do is use, its tough af.
 
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Not A Fan

Not A Fan

don't avoid the void
Jun 22, 2024
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Tbh it's maddening, I know exactly where to go etc. I think a lot of people with perhaps a differing outlook would feel good right now, all I wanna do is use, its tough af.
Well from one junkie to another... mad respect! A week or two of hellish withdrawals is one thing. It's the months that stretch out after the withdrawal where the real challenge lies.

I just wish they had a better name for it than "PAWS," because it sure ain't very cute and cuddly.

Does it ever actually get better for people? The couple times I've ever made it several months of not using, the fact that one never really starts feeling better, was pretty discouraging. But then, it's basically just the way I felt before I had ever used opioids.

If "normal" already sucks by default, then I'm not sure it's something I'd ever want to go back to.

Thanks for the reply and I wish you the best in your endeavors. (Sorry I know maybe some people might not like the word junkie but I mean it endearingly)
 
justwannadip

justwannadip

it's still raining
May 27, 2024
290
If anyone could give me advice on how to get F reliably (whether through the DNM or streets), I'd appreciate any guidance.
 
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