I have fallen into poverty

[letied]

My father was the only one who brought money to the house and he passed away last month from covid. My mother doesn't work (but she will receive money for my father's work) and she hates me, so I will probably be homeless or live poor forever in the place where my mother is going to move (one of the poorest provinces from my third world country).
Even if I got a job, it's very difficult to get out of poverty here and I'm already 21 years old and I don't even have a high school diploma.

I have had depression since childhood and anxiety since adolescence. My mental and emotional health is awful, I have some hereditary health problems and my physical appearance is disgusting. I'm useless.

The idea of going full suspension is very high. I'm desperate.
It's horrible because I would love to live but I know that my whole life was, is and will be shit. Life wants me to kill myself since I was born.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Me too. Very stressful.

 

[Zzzzz]

Poverty can be completely soul-crushing. Whatever happens, I hope you find peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really can be very cruel, I'm sorry that it has come to this. I wish you well.

 

[noname223]

I will live in povery in some years if I don't ctb beforehand. I am scared as shit I am not made for poverty...I think it will be one of 3 big reasons for my suicide.

 

[Schevan]

I wish you luck in your journey. Hope you make it there on your terms.