suffering

suffering

Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
Aug 17, 2018
398
My life has been a cycle of miserable employment and miserable unemployment. I basically work 1-2 years until I can't take it any more (all the bullshit, selling my soul, etc) and then quit and live a life of frugal misery, but at least with some freedom. Until I run out of money and then I have to wage slave again.... Last time I was unemployed I kept telling myself that if I get a job I will stick to it, but now that I'm actually working I am so freaking miserable. It's dehumanizing. (and it's relatively an ok job, I can barely imagine what people with constant customer facing interaction + super low pay are going through.. my heart goes out to you).
Anyway I just can't go on any more................ I can't.................... It's too much. I will just live frugally for as much as I can, even if it's a few months, and then if I go broke I will try to find a new job again.... I just need to escape....
 
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JSRF

JSRF

Student
May 30, 2018
134
Its pretty much the same with me. Working makes me miserable and being unemployed does so too
 
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EGR92

Student
Jul 4, 2020
186
I have never managed to stay in a job longer than 6 months in my miserable pathetic 27 years of life..
 
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GravityUtilizer

GravityUtilizer

Born to lose
May 22, 2020
737
Yeah I've been doing the whole unemployed super frugal thing for a while now. It is also shit but I guess it could make a nice change for you.
 
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Deleted member 17949

Visionary
May 9, 2020
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I struggle with jobs a lot. I go into periods where I just can't bring myself to do anything so I quit.
 
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I_love_to_bake

I_love_to_bake

Student
Feb 27, 2020
167
The solution to my mental health isn't a therapist it's a non-toxic workplace. Unfortunately I'm a toxic person who doesn't deserve a non-toxic workplace, I guess. Maybe I just wish I wasn't such a natural target for bullying.

I'm also living frugally to prolong my next trip to a wage cage. Probably back to the crate factory.
 
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suffering

suffering

Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
Aug 17, 2018
398
It's time, I think, to submit my resignation. The problem is not just the rat race (which I hate) it's also my own incompetence, to some degree. If I had enough will, I would probably find a solution to work better, but I don't. I am disinterested, I feel a visceral reaction of disgust every time I have to put effort into this crap. I'm a good actor, I can pass interviews, talk nice, pretend to be busy etc. But my act is coming to an end, I am about to be discovered as the impostor that I am. I feel no guilt, no shame, no nothing. I never empathized when people on this forum vent about 'feeling useless'. Why should I feel useful? To be used by whom? I don't care about this crap. If anything, I am proud that I can trick people into believing that I give a damn about wage slavery BS and get a paycheck without doing much.
But now my time is up. I might as well beat them to the punch and quit while I still have a decent reputation.
 
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JoeFailure

Mage
Apr 29, 2019
591
It's time, I think, to submit my resignation. The problem is not just the rat race (which I hate) it's also my own incompetence, to some degree. If I had enough will, I would probably find a solution to work better, but I don't. I am disinterested, I feel a visceral reaction of disgust every time I have to put effort into this crap. I'm a good actor, I can pass interviews, talk nice, pretend to be busy etc. But my act is coming to an end, I am about to be discovered as the impostor that I am. I feel no guilt, no shame, no nothing. I never empathized when people on this forum vent about 'feeling useless'. Why should I feel useful? To be used by whom? I don't care about this crap. If anything, I am proud that I can trick people into believing that I give a damn about wage slavery BS and get a paycheck without doing much.
But now my time is up. I might as well beat them to the punch and quit while I still have a decent reputation.

What kind of jobs do you get where you don't have to do that much?
 
suffering

suffering

Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
Aug 17, 2018
398
What kind of jobs do you get where you don't have to do that much?
It's a job in software, I don't want to dox myself so I won't share precise details. It's basically a game of luck..sometimes the team is in between projects or stuff like that and you get to chill for a long period of time. But there are times when you actually have to work a lot.
 

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