I insulted him a couple of times for his opinions. I ghosted him the last years mostly. 3 weeks ago he wanted to meet. I felt really bad because I just quitted college and did not want to be alone. I agreed to meet him. One can see he has radicalized himself over the years a lot. He is a lot worse than one year ago. He gets worse and worse. I sort of humilated him intellectually by disecting his bogus political takes. He is MAGA supporter, loves eugenics and is into pseudo science while worshipping IQ all the time. Quite sick. I called him a couple of times out and proved him so many thinking fallacies so much that he does not text me anymore despite the fact he is probably pretty lonely. But that's it if you are an asshole like that you will end up very lonely. (It does not equate though if you are lonely, you must be an asshole. That's certainly not true)
He sort of bragged with having sex in front of me. He looks sort of sloppy, he smelled bad. He pretended in every psychotic thoughts there is a small percentage of truth. Tbh I think if you think like that you already lost the battle of sanity. In the past he told me he went to bars and asked the women "Do you want to fuck with me?". I think he does not know shame anymore. And he told me I have to be less shame obsessed. With that he has a point. I have a very strong sense of shame. It was akward to walk with him around while he was telling all this bullshit. But I am sort of used to it when my dad is around. He is into Nietzsche, Curtis Yarvin, Freud. He told me there was a woman who was not interested in him, then he slept with her best friend and suddenly she was interested in him. He said he really enjoyed that and he was so proud of himself. My personal theory on that is: yes there are women who tend to search for toxic and abusive partnerships especially when they are traumatized and have self-worth issues. I would highly disagree with his take "treat women bad" -> they will start to like you. This is delusional. If he asks so many women directly whether they want to have sex with him, it seems likely that a small percentage is willing to do it. And he humiliated himself in 95% of all attempts. Tbh I think I could not live like that. I could not look myself into the mirror. This is sexual harrassment. A disgusting human being.
The story gets worse. He has like a cousin with whom he went to parties. I don't know the exact wording anymore. But he told me something like his cousin (or uncle?) is a psychopath that uses knockout drops to sleep (-> rape would be the right word) with women. And he said his uncle (cousin? whatever) slept with over one hundred prostitutes and treats them so bad. Before he told me that (we were in the psychiatry walking close to the forensic) he joked how so many Syrian refugees commit shameless crimes. Well I had him in a logic chockhold. I told him well him well if a relative of you treats women like that that's cool and admirable. But if a refugee does that he is evil and we have to throw all of them out of the country. He was a little bit stunned after that reply. He is in a cult and is not used to it when people disagree with him. That's obvious.
After that encounter I decided to ghost him again. I ridiculed his whole bogus ideology beforehand. This was weird, I tend to have weird stories to tell. But they are all true but I am also a good storyteller I think. And I think I am not that much into secrecy. This could be seen as bad. But it helps me to organize my thoughts to share and analyze them. Getting feedback from others.
He sort of bragged with having sex in front of me. He looks sort of sloppy, he smelled bad. He pretended in every psychotic thoughts there is a small percentage of truth. Tbh I think if you think like that you already lost the battle of sanity. In the past he told me he went to bars and asked the women "Do you want to fuck with me?". I think he does not know shame anymore. And he told me I have to be less shame obsessed. With that he has a point. I have a very strong sense of shame. It was akward to walk with him around while he was telling all this bullshit. But I am sort of used to it when my dad is around. He is into Nietzsche, Curtis Yarvin, Freud. He told me there was a woman who was not interested in him, then he slept with her best friend and suddenly she was interested in him. He said he really enjoyed that and he was so proud of himself. My personal theory on that is: yes there are women who tend to search for toxic and abusive partnerships especially when they are traumatized and have self-worth issues. I would highly disagree with his take "treat women bad" -> they will start to like you. This is delusional. If he asks so many women directly whether they want to have sex with him, it seems likely that a small percentage is willing to do it. And he humiliated himself in 95% of all attempts. Tbh I think I could not live like that. I could not look myself into the mirror. This is sexual harrassment. A disgusting human being.
The story gets worse. He has like a cousin with whom he went to parties. I don't know the exact wording anymore. But he told me something like his cousin (or uncle?) is a psychopath that uses knockout drops to sleep (-> rape would be the right word) with women. And he said his uncle (cousin? whatever) slept with over one hundred prostitutes and treats them so bad. Before he told me that (we were in the psychiatry walking close to the forensic) he joked how so many Syrian refugees commit shameless crimes. Well I had him in a logic chockhold. I told him well him well if a relative of you treats women like that that's cool and admirable. But if a refugee does that he is evil and we have to throw all of them out of the country. He was a little bit stunned after that reply. He is in a cult and is not used to it when people disagree with him. That's obvious.
After that encounter I decided to ghost him again. I ridiculed his whole bogus ideology beforehand. This was weird, I tend to have weird stories to tell. But they are all true but I am also a good storyteller I think. And I think I am not that much into secrecy. This could be seen as bad. But it helps me to organize my thoughts to share and analyze them. Getting feedback from others.
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