I hate them

[Livingvsdying25]

I hate my parents. I know the general consensus is it's wrong to CTB as a sorta revenge but I dont give a fuck.

I hate them and I'm going to CTB for me but definitely 10-15% bc of them. I cannot wait to deal that destruction onto them. The suffering that that'll be is only 25% of the shit that, they have dragged me through.

Should've never been borned and I can't wait to die. I know I sound fucked up but accept these feelings for myself. Ty for reading.

Edit: lool my spelling & grammar suck

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

I hate my parents. I know the general consensus is it's wrong to CTB as a sorta revenge but I dont give a fuck.

I hate them and I'm CTB for me but definitely 10-15% bc of them. I cannot wait to deal that destruction onto them. The suffering that that'll be is only 25% of the shit they have dragged me through.

Should've never been bored and I can't wait to die. I know I sound fucked up hut accept these feelings for myself. Ty for reading.

I want to support you on whatever path you take, as long as it brings you peace and comfort. however I believe that you should CTB for yourself, no one else, well in my opinion anyway. I'm not I feel like anything such as revenge can be a feeling temporary controlled by anger. But who am I to say your own feelings.

 

[Broken Chimera]

It's natural to want to hurt people who hurt you, even if it's your parents. Can you get away from them?

 

[The Warm Industry]

The only reason I don't do CTB as a revenge is that I know people would feel bad for 2, maybe 3 days, and then would completely forget about me.

Or maybe I would turn in some kind of dark humor joke on Christmas dinner. That's how people are.

That's why I will leave on my own terms. When I do that, I'll make sure I'm not caring about anyone anymore.

 

[thatguyakira123]

I'm more leaning this way as a big fuck you to my family but at the same time I'm less motivated to ctb

 

[Flippy]

Sometimes the best revenge towards people that hurt you can be to cut them out of your life and show how much better you can do without their crap. Though it's hard to find the motivation past a certain point. When people push your buttons when you are running out of strength it can feel like all more reasons to ctb. I'm sorry they've made you feel like that, and I think I can understand it. :-(

 

[Csmith8827]

I totally and completely relate to you. I feel the same way about my parents and all the shit they put me through. Just fucking evil people. The best thing is to simply cut them out of your life and make a better life for yourself.

 

[TheEndof]

Yeah, I get you. I feel the same to any extent. It's my decision to ctb but it brings me great comfort to know that it'll be a big fuck you to people who have caused me pain. It's not my main reason by far, just an added bonus tbh.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Yeah, I get you. I feel the same to any extent. It's my decision to ctb but it brings me great comfort to know that it'll be a big fuck you to people who have caused me pain. It's not my main reason by far, just an added bonus tbh.

This.

 

[Supersadmommy90]

The only reason I don't do CTB as a revenge is that I know people would feel bad for 2, maybe 3 days, and then would completely forget about me.

Couldn't agree more. People who don't care about you in life won't care about you in death. If they do feel "bad' it will just be to comfort themselves and abdicate themselves of guilt. But they will move on within a matter of hours, if not minutes, after hearing the news. Worse, people that hate you will actually be happy you CTB'd, and it sucks but my CTB would, I;m sure, make at least a few people happy, as sick as that sounds it is true. It's all I can do not to give them that satisfaction. But if I ever do it will be for me, not for anyone else.

 

[Ghost2211]

If they have related to you in such a way that causes that much harm and distress I honestly see nothing wrong with that being the icing on the cake. CTB solely as revenge just seems like a waste of one's own death, but like I said sometimes a cake needs some icing.

 

[Quarky00]

Yeah, I get you. I feel the same to any extent. It's my decision to ctb but it brings me great comfort to know that it'll be a big fuck you to people who have caused me pain. It's not my main reason by far, just an added bonus tbh.

Spot on (Imtrying21 said)

Yeah def the icing (RoseyBird)

 

[TAW122]

I can understand the reasoning and I once had the same feeling too, but then I also realized that my parents were just doing what they thought naturally and I happened to be the end product of it. Of course that doesn't excuse it, but I am not going to resent them or hate them for creating me. I do resent them for other reasons though in the past, but currently, no.

I'm just exiting on my own terms and on my own decision and mine alone.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

@Imtrying21 I don't think you sound fucked up. No judgment here. You sound quite rational. Okay, that's judgment, but not condemnation. So, no condemnation here.