Venting I HATE THE REALITY OF THE WORLD

[Crematoryy]

There is a sexual infamy that I cannot bear: while some consciousnesses are trapped in horrible existences, others revel in their lust. I cannot deal with the idea that sex is accessible and routine for many, while for me it is unattainable, unfeasible, unobtainable,. This truth is outrageous and makes me hate every fiber of my being. I hate the way suffering is so unequally distributed.

I see plenty of evidence on the internet that confirms my conviction. This world is too absurd to be conceived. You suffer while they fuck -- and you know it, you see the vanity of continuing to suffer for nothing.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

I wish there was a kaiju sized Komatsu D355A so I could killdozer the earth.

 

[NonEssential]

Loneliness causes me to feel the same kind of anger, but mostly towards myself and less so towards other people.

 

[froggirl9000]

Dacheffen is that you???

 

[sickDog420]

lol I mean people are up to all sorts of things while you suffering, like i'm eating this awesome three meat pizza while you suffering… anything could happen next

 

[OvercastingClouds]

lol I mean people are up to all sorts of things while you suffering, like i'm eating this awesome three meat pizza while you suffering… anything could happen next

Lmao big on this. People are going to continue on with their lives even if others are suffering.

Although you COULD argue that society has become more hypersexualized and whatnot, especially with social media contributing to that. Sex isn't really seen as a genuine intimate act between one another anymore, rather social media constantly bringing up sugguestive and sexual media/jokes makes people more desensitized rather. But that's just how humans are, they're gonna fuck if they wanna, and they'll use the chances or any access they can/have.

I personally don't really care too much about the thought of sexual acts and relationships, too depressed for that(also possibly on the asexual spectrum), but hypothetically if I did I'd want it to be with someone I have a deep connection with, that doesn't apply to everyone though. I can understand how you feel though, constant loneliness can lead one to be a bit envious of others with such connections

 

[LetMeOut67]

Yes the horror of discovering what a finely tuned outrageously unfair hell this is can send you crazy.

 

[here_for_now]

if you ever want to have sex i'm going to be brutally honest

you need to drop the loser i-ncel thinking and get your fucking ass to the gym.

(if your body can handle it of course don't know if you have chronic illness that prevents that )

but if you don't have have some bullshit chronic ilness that stops u from pushing yourself and its just you throwing a tantrum online just fucking whining you can't get pussy it's not going to do anything

At least you can most likely work out, that's a privilege there are brothers who are stuck with chronic illness and can't mold their body into something attractive.

For example, yours truly is facing chronic illness and just running for a few mins puts me out for days.

I wish i could slap you to knock some sense into you.

I wonder why you limit people viewing you profile.... not saying it's bad to want privacy but you'd get different replies if you made it open to the public... food for thought

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Sex isn't going to magically make life better for you. You'll likely end up feeling just as miserable as before. I feel like we tend to blame our feelings on simple external things, believing that if we gain what we want we will finally feel better. The thing is, most of the time said thing won't make you feel better, especially in the long run. Beyond the fact that the internet is not an accurate depiction of irl, I have doubts that sex will minimize or end your suffering. It would arguably be healthier to learn to stop putting sex on such a pedestal.

 

[wham311]

Loneliness causes me to feel the same kind of anger, but mostly towards myself and less so towards other people.

I blame others so I dont hurt as much. But it's entirely my fault

 

[Crematoryy]

if you ever want to have sex i'm going to be brutally honest

you need to drop the loser i-ncel thinking and get your fucking ass to the gym.

(if your body can handle it of course don't know if you have chronic illness that prevents that )

but if you don't have have some bullshit chronic ilness that stops u from pushing yourself and its just you throwing a tantrum online just fucking whining you can't get pussy it's not going to do anything

At least you can most likely work out, that's a privilege there are brothers who are stuck with chronic illness and can't mold their body into something attractive.

For example, yours truly is facing chronic illness and just running for a few mins puts me out for days.

I wish i could slap you to knock some sense into you.

I wonder why you limit people viewing you profile.... not saying it's bad to want privacy but you'd get different replies if you made it open to the public... food for thought

I believe there was a kernel of truth in your response that went unnoticed. I regret not having read it sooner. I am truly privileged to still have the possibility of shaping myself to acquire some level of attractiveness. But I am not privileged to the point of always enjoying this innate attraction without the need for self-construction. I have limited access to my profile because no one is trustworthy. They have already tried to take down my account due to unfair reports. Don't get emotionally involved or blindly believe in people. As much as I am obsessed with changing my appearance just in the hope of one day being accepted and loved, I feel frustrated when I notice my powerlessness and inability to self-determine. Just one look at my reflection in the mirror is enough to awaken suicidal thoughts.

But have I been progressing since the day of this post? I would say that even if I move one step forward, the distance between me and my goal has multiplied 100 times. It's like fighting a war even knowing there's no way to win. It's about never giving up no matter what happens; or deciding to give up and finding a method. And in that, I'm being strong. I'm a broken person who gets back up through willpower, and breaks again to get up again, and with each repetition, my old version dies. Is that evolution or just calluses?

 

[here_for_now]

I believe there was a kernel of truth in your response that went unnoticed. I regret not having read it sooner. I am truly privileged to still have the possibility of shaping myself to acquire some level of attractiveness. But I am not privileged to the point of always enjoying this innate attraction without the need for self-construction. I have limited access to my profile because no one is trustworthy. They have already tried to take down my account due to unfair reports. Don't get emotionally involved or blindly believe in people. As much as I am obsessed with changing my appearance just in the hope of one day being accepted and loved, I feel frustrated when I notice my powerlessness and inability to self-determine. Just one look at my reflection in the mirror is enough to awaken suicidal thoughts.

But have I been progressing since the day of this post? I would say that even if I move one step forward, the distance between me and my goal has multiplied 100 times. It's like fighting a war even knowing there's no way to win. It's about never giving up no matter what happens; or deciding to give up and finding a method. And in that, I'm being strong. I'm a broken person who gets back up through willpower, and breaks again to get up again, and with each repetition, my old version dies. Is that evolution or just calluses?

Hey brother i see your pain and it's 100% real and valid. I didn't mean any rudeness or any ill will with my replies i just want the best for you brother, and i deal with the same issue, I'm on a dry spell too but try your best not to ruminate or you'll be stuck in analysis paralysis, wish the best for you good luck
And i get your pain 1000% because I'm mostly in the same place, i crave intimacy and romance it and it sucks to lack it. I also am fighting suicidal thoughts due to depression but i hope you find a purpose and stronger will to live my friend

 

[Phyreen]

Hear, hear. The world is utterly unjust and absurd in every way imaginable. It does become unbearable.

 

[liquid jen]

There is a sexual infamy that I cannot bear: while some consciousnesses are trapped in horrible existences, others revel in their lust. I cannot deal with the idea that sex is accessible and routine for many, while for me it is unattainable, unfeasible, unobtainable,. This truth is outrageous and makes me hate every fiber of my being. I hate the way suffering is so unequally distributed.

I see plenty of evidence on the internet that confirms my conviction. This world is too absurd to be conceived. You suffer while they fuck -- and you know it, you see the vanity of continuing to suffer for nothing.

It is almost cosmically unfair that many of us are doomed to a life of never feeling intimate love in this way while others bathe in it. I hate that I can't get it, and I hate this feeling of hatred I feel because it makes me feel like such a loser, and I hate that this self-imposed (albeit societally confirmed) view of myself only further pushes me away from potential partners. Every once in a while I get a rare glimpse of maybe feeling true love with another person and it is all but squandered every single time.

 

[finaldestination22]

Sex isn't going to magically make life better for you. You'll likely end up feeling just as miserable as before. I feel like we tend to blame our feelings on simple external things, believing that if we gain what we want we will finally feel better. The thing is, most of the time said thing won't make you feel better, especially in the long run. Beyond the fact that the internet is not an accurate depiction of irl, I have doubts that sex will minimize or end your suffering. It would arguably be healthier to learn to stop putting sex on such a pedestal.

this 100%. look at that guy Clavicular he literally modified his face by smashing his bones, got attractive and famous he has girls everywhere but he still make numerous videos about how miserable he is because he is autistic and that empty feeling just not goes away. he also OD'ed a few days ago.

What most people need is a release, we are humans after all. If you don't get to fuck for a long time and you want to ofc you become frustrated and the more you look on the internet and irl the more you feel like everyone is partying and you're missing on everything.

Disgusting body that most people say they have here, well I see so many ugly ass mans outside whit their girls/wives and kids you won't even believe it. But they don't have mental issues that's for sure, once your mental is fucked it will trick you into all sort of lies and bs and make you dig your own hole. That's what happened to me too.

 

[Aflame5926]

if you ever want to have sex i'm going to be brutally honest

you need to drop the loser i-ncel thinking and get your fucking ass to the gym.

(if your body can handle it of course don't know if you have chronic illness that prevents that )

but if you don't have have some bullshit chronic ilness that stops u from pushing yourself and its just you throwing a tantrum online just fucking whining you can't get pussy it's not going to do anything

At least you can most likely work out, that's a privilege there are brothers who are stuck with chronic illness and can't mold their body into something attractive.

For example, yours truly is facing chronic illness and just running for a few mins puts me out for days.

I wish i could slap you to knock some sense into you.

I wonder why you limit people viewing you profile.... not saying it's bad to want privacy but you'd get different replies if you made it open to the public... food for thought

PREACH.

But there are some exceptions. I agree, this all depends on effort.
But i do know some are that social awkward. going to the gym is hard. but having a good wing/gym bro or wing/gym gurl can extremely well.
now i think of it why dont we have these programs? (not personal training but more like community driven so friendships are actually built)