i hate that people think this is the real me

[kk13]

no one fucking notices that im struggling. ive been a shell of my old self since 14 and all anyone has done is call me boring, not fun, sad. everyone thinks thats my personality. i cant even blame them because i cant express myself properly. i couldve turned out so much better. i know theres no point in dwelling over it now. but wtf man. i couldve been fucking amazing. i hate who i have become. if 10 year old me saw me she'd slit her own throat.
no one has really stayed. why cant no one see how bad this has gotten. i dont want to live this way. this is so horrible. when i die no one can fucking say shit about me. no one knew me. no one knew the pain i woke up with every single day. i dont care that other people are stronger. i know im weak. i just want everyone else to shut the fuck up

 

[chaewon]

Is it too late and worth losing your life though?

 

[theEnemy]

Is it too late and worth losing your life though?

yes it is

 

[chudcell]

no one fucking notices that im struggling. ive been a shell of my old self since 14 and all anyone has done is call me boring, not fun, sad. everyone thinks thats my personality. i cant even blame them because i cant express myself properly. i couldve turned out so much better. i know theres no point in dwelling over it now. but wtf man. i couldve been fucking amazing. i hate who i have become. if 10 year old me saw me she'd slit her own throat.
no one has really stayed. why cant no one see how bad this has gotten. i dont want to live this way. this is so horrible. when i die no one can fucking say shit about me. no one knew me. no one knew the pain i woke up with every single day. i dont care that other people are stronger. i know im weak. i just want everyone else to shut the fuck up

Im wishing you peace and happiness, whatever you decide to do.

 

[telekon]

no one fucking notices that im struggling. ive been a shell of my old self since 14 and all anyone has done is call me boring, not fun, sad. everyone thinks thats my personality. i cant even blame them because i cant express myself properly. i couldve turned out so much better. i know theres no point in dwelling over it now. but wtf man. i couldve been fucking amazing. i hate who i have become. if 10 year old me saw me she'd slit her own throat.
no one has really stayed. why cant no one see how bad this has gotten. i dont want to live this way. this is so horrible. when i die no one can fucking say shit about me. no one knew me. no one knew the pain i woke up with every single day. i dont care that other people are stronger. i know im weak. i just want everyone else to shut the fuck up

that last sentence is a vibe

 

[Lou_Charthethird]

no one fucking notices that im struggling. ive been a shell of my old self since 14 and all anyone has done is call me boring, not fun, sad. everyone thinks thats my personality. i cant even blame them because i cant express myself properly. i couldve turned out so much better. i know theres no point in dwelling over it now. but wtf man. i couldve been fucking amazing. i hate who i have become. if 10 year old me saw me she'd slit her own throat.
no one has really stayed. why cant no one see how bad this has gotten. i dont want to live this way. this is so horrible. when i die no one can fucking say shitabout me. no one knew me. no one knew the pain i woke up with every single day. i dont care that other people are stronger. i know im weak. i just want everyone else to shut the fuck up

Idk if this would relate to you but i kinda related to this. Before whatever happened to me happened, i was super depressed, but i was capable of emotion and pain and happiness. But something switched off when i was 13-14 and my personality and values and passions and fears and urges and everything, just disappeared. I feel like a husk of a human and the worst part is everyone thinks this version of me is better. They genuinely think im doing so much better than i actually am. The true me is probably dead and never coming back. So im stuck in this corpse living a pointless life