i hate that i hate

[mashka9]

i hate how much anger i have towards mentally stable people. i'm so jealous and i'll never get rid of it. i hate how to many suicide is just a funny word you'll throw around as a joke and i can't even imagine a future for myself. i hate how i need medication to keep myself alive and yet even that isn't helping. i hate having to wake up everyday and NO ONE understands me? NO ONE around me gets how it feels to despise living. no matter how hard i try i know i'm not going to get better. I've been miserable since elementary school and I KNOW i won't get better. no doctors will take me seriously, no one. i need to get out, i'm filled with nothing but hate and suffering.

 

[cali22♡]

I also hate other people i hate everyone in reallife cause they can do with me what they want

 

[Weltall]

i hate how much anger i have towards mentally stable people. i'm so jealous and i'll never get rid of it. i hate how to many suicide is just a funny word you'll throw around as a joke and i can't even imagine a future for myself. i hate how i need medication to keep myself alive and yet even that isn't helping. i hate having to wake up everyday and NO ONE understands me? NO ONE around me gets how it feels to despise living. no matter how hard i try i know i'm not going to get better. I've been miserable since elementary school and I KNOW i won't get better. no doctors will take me seriously, no one. i need to get out, i'm filled with nothing but hate and suffering.

You're in pain, and I'm so sorry that's happening.
Know that there are people here that can relate to your issues closely, even myself.

There are doctors though that do listen to their patients.
They are difficult to find, and it takes effort--but it could improve your quality of life.
If someone is truly in pain, then there is no reason to doubt them.

Please reach out to us if you need to vent or want to be heard.
I wish you luck on your journey friend.