I hate that I am gay and feminine.

[Parnate]

I am closeted gay and was and still am very feminine.
I was bullied a lot for being effeminate. Still a friend or person whom I consider friend occasionally calls me transgender, which here in India is an insult. He does that to other people too.
A roommate sometimes makes fun of my effeminate mannerisms.
Social media only worsens it since i follow these muscular and masculine men whom i both like and admire.
I hate that god made me this way, he could have made me a woman or man not just physically but completely. Also I can't come out to my parents even though I want to.
Sad

 

[knowledgeseeking]

I am closeted gay and was and still am very feminine.
I was bullied a lot for being effeminate. Still a friend or person whom I consider friend occasionally calls me transgender, which here in India is an insult. He does that to other people too.
A roommate sometimes makes fun of my effeminate mannerisms.
Social media only worsens it since i follow these muscular and masculine men whom i both like and admire.
I hate that god made me this way, he could have made me a woman or man not just physically but completely. Also I can't come out to my parents even though I want to.
Sad

The best advice I can give you is to get out into the community. You may have bigoted family or something, but once you get out into the community you will see their is family there that will accept you.

It is scary for us all at first but I promise will be something you will look back on without regret. If anything you'll regret not doing it sooner.