Venting i hate myself

[throwaway777]

i keep doubting myself ...anything i say or do seems wrong to me and i keep thinking if the things i say, i really mean them or i am just saying them to get something from someone .. attention ? sympathy so they can like me ? ... i dont know !!! but i dont want to be this way ... i dont know how i should be ... words are important to me and i want to be honest but maybe i should just stop talking bc the moment i say something i immediately doubt myself and feel guilty .. it almost feels like im manipulating others not that i do it consciously knowing that im doing it ..it s almost automatic it doesnt go through my thoughts.. it's like unconscious ... idk if it makes sense but i dont want to manipulate others and i know that humans are selfish and im human too so anything i say will always be about me but i dont want to accept this ..it feels too wrong .. it makes me hate myself so much .. im sorry

 

[Weeping Garbage Can]

My dear Ms. Sweetie! Please don't apologize for sharing your thoughts, that's what this forum is for

I'm really sorry you feel this way, but I completely understand, as I feel the exact same. I just want to thank you for your honesty, this vent alone lets me know that you have the best of intentions and don't aim on manipulating people. But I'm so saddened you have that hatred for yourself like I have for myself.

Please know that I'm always here, and that I care about you.

gives you a jumbo pegasus hug

 

[yabbadabbadoo]