Fire&Ash
Experienced
- Apr 15, 2020
- 225
Well today is thanksgiving. My sister got frustrated at me because I can't seem to take initiative at 27 year old to make the ham. I'm confused and scared on how to do it. This is a reminder that I'm incompetent at many things that I should be learning by now.
I really don't have a future. I can't get a job over $15 because I can't study for my life. I have taken a long list of medications just to try to learn to function every day life. Stimulants, non-stimulants, SSRIS, and more. I don't think I'm going to do better and no medication will fix me. I know medication logically can't fix me, but I sure can't do it myself.
I've contemplated on buying a gun but that's messy. So my cleanest method is a charcoal mini grill. I wish I could take a pill.
Or even better, a whole service was made that I can walk into a building, sign a questionnaire, donate my things, get everything set up and just choose a date and it's peaceful for me. No fear.
I really don't have a future. I can't get a job over $15 because I can't study for my life. I have taken a long list of medications just to try to learn to function every day life. Stimulants, non-stimulants, SSRIS, and more. I don't think I'm going to do better and no medication will fix me. I know medication logically can't fix me, but I sure can't do it myself.
I've contemplated on buying a gun but that's messy. So my cleanest method is a charcoal mini grill. I wish I could take a pill.
Or even better, a whole service was made that I can walk into a building, sign a questionnaire, donate my things, get everything set up and just choose a date and it's peaceful for me. No fear.