Venting I hate having a penis

[Baron]

It makes me think disgusting thoughts, it makes me do disgusting things. I've been fantasizing about cutting it off lately, really weird thought. I completely despise it when I get an erection, in those times I just want to cut it off even more. I hate it when I want to touch it, play with it. For some reason it makes me feel guilty. I feel so disgusted everytime I see it while changing clothes or taking a shower. Am I the only one feeling like that?

 

[Enlighten]

It makes me think disgusting thoughts, it makes me do disgusting things. I've been fantasizing about cutting it off lately, really weird thought. I completely despise it when I get an erection, in those times I just want to cut it off even more. I hate it when I want to touch it, play with it. For some reason it makes me feel guilty. I feel so disgusted everytime I see it while changing clothes or taking a shower. Am I the only one feeling like that?

It's the balls that make you want to do all those things, not your dick. Your dick just pisses and follows the order or your hormones.
Either way, i completely disagree. I love my dick and balls, as they can give me pleasure like no other.
Cutting it off will only mutilate you.

 

[Meditation guide]

As a cis woman I too hate feeling horny and wish I could stop it somehow. I have other things I want to think about. It seems like it has some kind of weird control at times. I'm so thankful I don't have a penis.
That would be worse. I can completely understand how you feel op.

 

[Dying Knight]

As a cis woman I too hate feeling horny and wish I could stop it somehow. I have other things I want to think about. It seems like it has some kind of weird control at times. I'm so thankful I don't have a penis.

Well, men can get rid of their hard-on and sexual arousal by ejaculating, and each subsequent "finish" increases the refractory period, so it's not a big problem.

That would be worse.

Only in the sense that you couldn't have multiple orgasms then )))

 

[Meditation guide]

I hate the entire process of how it takes over my thoughts and actions. I don't want orgasms or ever to think about sex again. As problems go it's not the worst one for me as a female but for some men I can see how it would be.

 

[letmejoindeath]

Getting horny used to be the only time I didn't want to ctb.

Now if I get horny I just get super depressed and want to ctb more.

Cant even get anyone to talk dirty to me so as soon as it happens I try thinking about death.

If it was being used that might be a different story but women don't want guys in their 30s who live in a studio apartment.

I don't want to cut it off though because I have enjoyed having it.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

It makes me think disgusting thoughts, it makes me do disgusting things. I've been fantasizing about cutting it off lately, really weird thought. I completely despise it when I get an erection, in those times I just want to cut it off even more. I hate it when I want to touch it, play with it. For some reason it makes me feel guilty. I feel so disgusted everytime I see it while changing clothes or taking a shower. Am I the only one feeling like that?

Only my thoughts. I don't want to think dirty thoughts about someone I know.
As far as my penis, it's natural to have those reactions. I know religion has used our NATURAL body functions against us.
Perhaps they should focus more on their priests and clergy diddling little boys and girls.
There is no way I would ever cut my penis off. I like to piss standing up.

 

[Dying Knight]

I hate the entire process of how it takes over my thoughts and actions. I don't want orgasms or ever to think about sex again. As problems go it's not the worst one for me as a female but for some men I can see how it would be.

I had similar "problems" when I was very young. When I realized that struggling is irrational and I just accepted sexual arousal and fapping as being normal like eating and pissing, such things became non-problems to me.

 

[puella]

Are you transgender? This sounds exactly like bottom dysphoria, which millions of people also suffer from.

I completely understand the struggle; it's emotionally painful. But there are surgeries that can fix this.

 

[confusedmess120]

I hate mine too. this is because I hate being a boy and I wish I was girl. half of the reason why im ending it.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Are you raised in a very strict religion?

I'm personally am very pleased by not having a penis, I'm glad I'm a female. But being raised in a very strict faith myself I did feel very ashamed about my body and sexuality for a long time. We're only human, with especially when you're very young raging hormones. I'm not really sure if there are ways to repress that except for cold showers and thinking about your elderly neighbour in a string bikini...

 

[sanlcx]

I completely disagree, i love feeling horny, i don't understand why you wouldn't.

 

[Baron]

Are you transgender? This sounds exactly like bottom dysphoria, which millions of people also suffer from.

I completely understand the struggle; it's emotionally painful. But there are surgeries that can fix this.

I am male and I don't think I'd ever want to change that. This is just how I often feel about my penis and sexual thoughts. I don't even want to think about possibly being trans. It just seems so stressful and troublesome.

It's the balls that make you want to do all those things, not your dick. Your dick just pisses and follows the order or your hormones.
Either way, i completely disagree. I love my dick and balls, as they can give me pleasure like no other.
Cutting it off will only mutilate you.

Of course I also know, that my hormones are not being produced in my penis. It's just that the penis is the thing that sticks out the most for me. Of course I also wouldn't want to literally cut it off, but I still fantasize doing it, can't help it.

Are you raised in a very strict religion?

I'm personally am very pleased by not having a penis, I'm glad I'm a female. But being raised in a very strict faith myself I did feel very ashamed about my body and sexuality for a long time. We're only human, with especially when you're very young raging hormones. I'm not really sure if there are ways to repress that except for cold showers and thinking about your elderly neighbour in a string bikini...

I was raised in a christian household, but not strict. Although my mother believes in all kinds of spiritual stuff and doesn't understand atheism. I guess my opinion and feelings towards this topic where influenced by the internet as well.

I completely disagree, i love feeling horny, i don't understand why you wouldn't.

Everytime I get horny I feel really uneasy and guilty. Like a pervert or some kind of predator. I also get horny from some fucked up stuff, makes the feeling even worse.

 

[Dying Knight]

I'm not really sure if there are ways to repress that except for cold showers and thinking about your elderly neighbour in a string bikini...

In case of men, abstinence of sex and masturbation is the worst possible strategy, because it leads to more strong and more intrusive spontaneous sexual arousal which will appear more and more frequently over the time. It may also cause prostatic congestion and issues with prostate. Reaching an actual sexual release is the most natural way to cope with arousal and thoughts about sex.

 

[Meditation guide]

I think people who don't want or think about sex are lucky. If I lived with some guy who was physically disgusting to me but didn't want sex it would probably solve my problem. I want to be turned off.
Sorry, I didn't mean to hijack this thread since it's about penises but just had to chime in that you don't necessarily have to have one to not want those thoughts or feelings.

 

[snowlance]

It makes me think disgusting thoughts, it makes me do disgusting things. I've been fantasizing about cutting it off lately, really weird thought. I completely despise it when I get an erection, in those times I just want to cut it off even more. I hate it when I want to touch it, play with it. For some reason it makes me feel guilty. I feel so disgusted everytime I see it while changing clothes or taking a shower. Am I the only one feeling like that?

Omg same, I literally try not to look at it or anything at all times. Like even when doing lewd stuff I use a blanket so I don't see it and usually feel guilty afterwards. I think of it as this alien parasitic growth I pretend doesn't exist. Everything about it is gross <<

 

[ManByTheRiver]

Well, men can get rid of their hard-on and sexual arousal by ejaculating, and each subsequent "finish" increases the refractory period, so it's not a big problem.

Well, then come the problems of masturbating too much, like porn addiction, decreased sensitivity, skewing of what brings sexual arousal among other things.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

In case of men, abstinence of sex and masturbation is the worst possible strategy, because it leads to more strong and more intrusive spontaneous sexual arousal which will appear more and more frequently over the time. It may also cause prostatic congestion and issues with prostate. Reaching an actual sexual release is the most natural way to cope with arousal and thoughts about sex.

I agree. Was just thinking out loud:)

 

[Enlighten]

I completely disagree, i love feeling horny, i don't understand why you wouldn't.

my man

 

[Dying Knight]

Omg same, I literally try not to look at it or anything at all times.

I think, the guy on the photo below can see it only in a mirror, so maybe his method is worth considering.

Well, then come the problems of masturbating too much, like porn addiction, decreased sensitivity, skewing of what brings sexual arousal among other things.

I couldn't recall such problems with myself. If you have other entertaining things to do, you probably won't be obsessed with porn and masturbation.

 

[Meditation guide]

Porn has something to do with my feelings of disliking it so much. I wish I had never seen or heard of porn.

 

[ManByTheRiver]

I couldn't recall such problems with myself. If you have other entertaining things to do, you probably won't be obsessed with porn and masturbation.

Depends on the person, I never had major problems either. But I wouldn't say masturbating multiple times a day to quell your raging sexuality is a healthy way to cope regardless of person.

 

[Don’tDoxMe]

Sounds like it could be ocd

 

[Dying Knight]

Porn has something to do with my feelings of disliking it so much. I wish I had never seen or heard of porn.

Sometimes porn may make you feel lonely and sad in case when you don't have a partner for sex. But if you try to avoid paying attention to this, it shouldn't bother you much. At least, this is how it worked for me.

But I wouldn't say masturbating multiple times a day to quell your raging sexuality is a healthy way to cope regardless of person.

I think, I never had to do this more than 3 times a day, and it wasn't a problem for me. But I know that some guys can have ejaculations at really excessive rates, such as 10 times per day. I wouldn't be able to reach their godspeed even if I wanted to. My little friend completely gave up after 5 times at most.

Perhaps, taking some meds that suppress libido could help them in case if fapping or having sex 2 - 3 times a day doesn't help enough.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Well, then come the problems of masturbating too much, like porn addiction, decreased sensitivity, skewing of what brings sexual arousal among other things.

The key is too much. It's healthy to "release" as long as you don't over do it.

 

[losing hope]

Personally I am thinking of putting my penis work in helping me ctb

Masturbation to help with SN ingestion.

***Hopefully this thread can become a useful exploration/resource into this subject for anyone mature enough*** For context, here is some background on why I posted this. I am a weed & porn addict & I masturbate a lot…something like 10 times a day when high. When untake these "sessions" I've...

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[voyager]

Well, you could always try chemical castration if it bothers you that much.

Personally, I agree with the wan..., I mean, hedonists though.

Have good memories in that regard from before it all went wrong. But, in the context of ctb, it has literally comforted me countless hours where it allowed me out of my usual self. It helped me get rid of frustration and sometimes get to sleep. Surely, that's a good thing. Don't quite understand this nofap/porn panic, tbh. Have never really seen a change in behaviour with more, less or none at all. Seems pointless going up against one's nature.

 

[vitbar]

I find having a penis amusing. It is such an absurd appendage.

Sex is fundamentally gross. We'd not want it without biologically programmed urges. Still it can be a good time. Why not indulge in being an animal. It's not like I can be something else.

Anti-depressants have dulled my urges sadly. Benefits in other areas outweigh this thankfully. Just find myself horny less often.

 

[Life Is My Coffin]

this whole thread just made me think of this

 

[godsseepiestsoldier]

It makes me think disgusting thoughts, it makes me do disgusting things. I've been fantasizing about cutting it off lately, really weird thought. I completely despise it when I get an erection, in those times I just want to cut it off even more. I hate it when I want to touch it, play with it. For some reason it makes me feel guilty. I feel so disgusted everytime I see it while changing clothes or taking a shower. Am I the only one feeling like that?

Honestly I completely get you man. Its not that I nesscerly get off to anything like horrific but just being horny and masturbation makes me feel so angry and disgusted. Also feel that I kinda try to block it out sm but having to see it or feeling it get hard beings so much anxiety and anger through me I hate it sm its just so ugly and gross. Sorry I can't offer a solution only the knowledge you're not alone