Story I hate god for making me this ugly

[deadzombie6]

6 years ago when I was like 13 i started liking a boy and he's the only boy i ever loved but he rejected me 3 years ago . Before all this rejection thing he had a girlfriend , that girl was my classmate . When I had a crush on him I saw how he smiled , giggled and blushed at that girl or how he turned back just to catch glances of her . I remember how he smiled when she looked at him , he was really good looking and so was she , she was everything i could never be he chose her over me . She was pretty , thin and beautiful something that I can never be . 2020 feb 14 on valentine's I saw him bringing a rose and choclate and proposing to her in front of my eyes it shattered my heart I've always known i was ugly but this shit killed me . I wish I was pretty I wish I was her I wish God dint make me this ugly . I've moved on yet whenever he messages casually ( once a year or so ) I feel my heart beat I feel my stomach flip i get so many butterflies and idk why . He's the only one I had a crush on still hurts to think that if I was beautiful i would have been his first love and first girlfriend . I'm already 19 and it hurts to know that I will never be anyone's first in anything . I can never be a man's first love and it hurts .

 

[goredpet]

i'm 20 years old and i met a man who was 22 who had no experiences whatsoever. it's entirely possible for you to be someone's first still, but i wouldn't rule anyone out simply because of past experiences still. my first real relationship was at 18. you'd be surprised how many people are out there who haven't found a chance yet. they're a quiet group, but a large one.

 

[needthebus]

sorry you feel this way and are here at SaSu. also hi

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Unrequited love is as torturous as it gets.