Ctb by the 20th of December
- Oct 11, 2020
I was already starting to dissociate while watching youtube videos about mental health, then my ex’s friend texted me (They think it’s funny to mock my pain). My chest started beating really hard and I couldn’t breath. I had to tell my little sister to leave because I knew I was going to have a panic attack. I ended up calling a friend to just stay in call while I sounded like I was being murdered. The message triggered flashbacks and made me feel like I was getting killed. It made me realize how bad it’s really gotten for me and it sucks seeing how pitiful I have become despite trying so long to just live. My decision for ctb is final. I’m guilty for what I will do to my family but I hope they could understand that I am no longer going to suffer. They will no longer have to deal with me.