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Donewith_

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Sep 28, 2018
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I slept before a while. I felt like.. I experienced something, like I am leaving permanently.
So, i slept and i think i was in deep sleep (i think so..coz i get sleep paralysis sometimes and i think this is not SP). and I felt like.. my brother came and just sat on me (its a bit crazy..he is a very heavy person .. so its too much for me). i was unable to breathe or unable to speak up. I want to make sure if its really happening or I am just dreaming ( when i get sleep paralysis episodes, or some other times too.. i just open a eye and see if it is really true(my brain is a bit messed up).. i opened my eye and saw my brother, so I felt that it is true) I felt like.. my vision is blurring which became blank finally. and I felt like.. I passed out . I thought it was true and i was leaving permanently.
such a weird experience.
 
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Warlock
May 22, 2019
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Even I am not sure now if you just dreamed or if your brother actually sat on you.

Why would he do that tho?
 
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Donewith_

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lol.. its very weird.
idk .. a bit strange. Maybe , nature is giving me a idea of how it feels like to ctb.
 
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Warlock
May 22, 2019
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Yeah I had a similar experience long time ago. In my 'dream' someone tried to suffocate me with a pillow.
 
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Donewith_

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Sep 28, 2018
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Yeah I had a similar experience long time ago. In my 'dream' someone tried to suffocate me with a pillow.
Omg! its very shocking to face it. You had episodes of sleep paralysis anytime before that?
 
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Apr 16, 2019
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I suffer from sleep paralysis as well and every month or so, i get this sensation of suffocating, sometimes accompanied by hallucinations. Like one time i "woke up" to discover a naked lady lying on top of me, except that she had her forearm across my neck trying to crush my airway. And in another instance, i felt like something was pulling my "soul" in and out of my body, as if it was playing with my soul. Surprisingly, somehow i knew it was just playing and meant no real harm.
 
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Donewith_

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Sep 28, 2018
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SP is a crappy thing to experience. Thankfully, I get less of them now.
 
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Warlock
May 22, 2019
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In that moment its shocking, true. I remember struggling to fight back but I couldn't. I was frozen unable to move. (obviously in retrospect as I was sleeping, not moving)

I had a couple of these weird experiences long time ago.
 
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Donewith_

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In that moment its shocking, true. I remember struggling to fight back but I couldn't. I was frozen unable to move. (obviously in retrospect as I was sleeping, not moving)

I had a couple of these weird experiences long time ago.
sounds like sleep paralysis.. but I am not really sure. feels very difficult in that moment.
 
Orin

Orin

Experienced
Apr 16, 2019
253
I noticed that most of the hallucinations occur when i'm in supine position, so i try to lay on my side.

But the most terrifying occurrence happened when i was in prone position. I sensed this malevolent entity circling my bed and it stared at me with such burning hatred. And it just stood there staring. Even if i wasn't paralyzed, i don't think i could have mustered the courage to turn my body and look at it, for i was frozen in absolute terror.
 
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Warlock
May 22, 2019
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I am glad I am not the only one who experienced these weird episodes. I actually thought it happened only to me -.- (ignorant me).
Before this thread, I didn't even know there was a name for it.
 
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Apr 16, 2019
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And i'm surprised a lot of these hallucinations (if they really are hallucinations) involve seeing an old hag. I've had one instance of seeing one; needless to say it wasn't a pleasant experience.

 
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