hazelmoon
waiting for my bus to arrive
- Nov 1, 2023
- 58
Soo, I drove an hour and 45 minutes today so secure my execution method. It's a generator lol. I'm going the carbon monoxide route. I had gotten a different generator before but it was too difficult to use. It weighs like 160 pounds so I can't move it around and it was too big and difficult to start in my car.
Sooo, I have been on the hunt for a smaller generator but I had a specific list of features I needed for it. I needed an older generator with no CO sensor (the new ones all have it), small enough to carry around and start in my car, and a 4 stroke engine that takes only gasoline, not a gasoline/oil mixture (because I have no idea how to properly mix them lol).
So I finally found one!!! It was $300. I drove out of my city to meet him for it and I swear I drove into a magic fairytale land. It was full of mansions and horse stables, and long private gated driveways. It was a nice change from the boring inner city neighborhood I see every day.
So now I just have to get my affairs in order and wait for a day that just pushes me over the edge. I've had a lot of those lately but didn't have a way out on those days.
I've packed my whole room up and written a letter to my uncle, and also wrote down instructions for my mother. I really hope my day comes soon and I'm sooo excited and relieved that I finally have a real way out (hopefully)
Sooo, I have been on the hunt for a smaller generator but I had a specific list of features I needed for it. I needed an older generator with no CO sensor (the new ones all have it), small enough to carry around and start in my car, and a 4 stroke engine that takes only gasoline, not a gasoline/oil mixture (because I have no idea how to properly mix them lol).
So I finally found one!!! It was $300. I drove out of my city to meet him for it and I swear I drove into a magic fairytale land. It was full of mansions and horse stables, and long private gated driveways. It was a nice change from the boring inner city neighborhood I see every day.
So now I just have to get my affairs in order and wait for a day that just pushes me over the edge. I've had a lot of those lately but didn't have a way out on those days.
I've packed my whole room up and written a letter to my uncle, and also wrote down instructions for my mother. I really hope my day comes soon and I'm sooo excited and relieved that I finally have a real way out (hopefully)
