Venting I got molested as a child and it ruined me

[Codename_Joryu]

I never shared this with anyone because it's by far the most degrading thing that has ever happened to me, not even my parents know about this. But since I plan to ctb anyway, I might as well come clean. When I was 8 I got sexually assaulted by my male friend, I don't want to get into the details because it was just fucking weird and disgusting. On top of that I was groomed on several occasions by older people and friends. I thought it will never affect me and just moved on, but it did later in my life. It made my self esteem drop to 0 and made my confidence nonexistent, it also heavily affected my view of sex and relationships. That's honestly one of the biggest reasons why I hate myself and want to die. I could never get a girlfriend and yet people were using me like it was nothing. I feel so pathetic and dirty because of that, like a literal subhuman.

 

[Jisatsu]

I was raped at 10 ...multiple times by a high ranking official at the church I attended and no one ever believed me .. even when I was crying and yelling about it they all just thought I was making it up.

 

[Codename_Joryu]

I was raped at 10 ...multiple times by a high ranking official at the church I attended and no one ever believed me .. even when I was crying and yelling about it they all just thought I was making it up.

I'm so sorry you had to go through this, no human being should be a victim to this crime. I wish I had the courage to speak about it when I was younger but I didn't know anything at this age.